Introduction...

samakasrc · December 2011

This is not an introduction I've been looking forward to, but I think its time.

My name is Sam, I'm a 25 year old from Minnesota. I've been a member of the bump for 2 years. I joined when I was pregnant with my daughter who is now 18 months old. I was also on the January 2012 board through my last pregnancy.

In August, at our 20 week anatomy scan, our baby was diagnosed with Bilateral Renal Agenesis (Potter's Syndrome) - his kidneys never developed. Through a long gruling (sp?) 6 weeks we decided to carry the baby as long as we could even though they recommended terminating.

After a long heartbreaking journey, we induced at 36 weeks and our angel was born on 12/8/11. We were given 35 precious minutes to love him, kiss him, and know him... After 2 1/2 weeks I am finally returning to The Bump and joining a board I hoped I'd never have to join... To talk to other parents who have traveled this road before me.

I have kept a blog of our journey www.mnmom4life.blogspot.com Its a hard read for someone who has recently gone through a similar situation though.

I visited Gabriel at the cemetary today, the first time I've gone there alone... Something told me to return to the place where I've gotten so much love and support before - The Bump. Even though this is not a board I wanted to join, I look forward to traveling the greiving process with the support of others who have traveled this road before me.

Much Love to you all.
~Sam

weddedwife · December 2011

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Gabriel! How wonderful that you were able to have some precious time with him.

No one wants to join this board but many of us are SO glad it's here. I've received a lot of comfort from these wonderful ladies and hope you will too.

hewinked · December 2011

I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a horrible board to have to join, but I hope you find some comfort and support here. Everyone here has been great. (((hugs)))

krysiahamaty · December 2011

I am so sorry for your loss. It is heartbreaking to go through what you went through and I'm sorry you have to be on this board. But I hope you find the support and comfort that I found here. The ladies are amazing. Big hugs.

Petunia844 · December 2011

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son. I agree, it's awful to have to be here, but amazing to have someplace to go when you feel like nobody else understands.

goillini823 · December 2011

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. I too have an angel named Gabriel. Not a board one wishes to belong to, but you will find amazing support here.

mrssoprano · December 2011

I'm so sorry for what you've been through. I'm glad you found this board even though it sucks to be here. ((hugs))

AmyG2b · December 2011

I'm very sorry about your son, but you are welcome here. This is a great place to find comfort.

dandywarhol · December 2011

I'm so sorry about the death of your Gabriel. I am thankful that you got to spend 35 minutes with him. I treasure the time we got to spend with my daughter. I wish you moments of peace and comfort this holiday season.

Auki13 · December 2011

I am very sorry for you loss. I too found out our daugher had a terminal condition at our 20 week ultrasound (she had anencephaly) and we decided to carry as long as possible. I went into labor naturally at almost 35 weeks. I am glad that you got some time with your precious Gabriel and I hope you find some support here on this board. We all have unique babies with unique stories, but unfortunately all experienced the same outcome. (((HUGE HUGS))) This group is wonderful and has already helped me through so much.

BeccaMarie · December 2011

I am so sorry for your loss. I am glad you found us.

I read through portions of your blog - thank you. For sharing your story! I delivered my son at the same hospital you delivered yours.

Please feel free to PM me at any time.

drvst8 · December 2011

I am so sorry for your loss. I really hope you find some comfort here.

krissywave · December 2011

I am glad that you have decided to come share your story with us. As PP has stated this is not a group any of us wanted to join. But since joining this group it has been a blessing. I know for me I have been able to deal with the passing alot easier then if I didnt have anything / anyone to turn to.

foxxy1 · December 2011

There's nothing I can say but I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm comforted that all of our angels are getting to know each other up in heaven. Gabriel is a beautiful name.