TTC After a Loss

Update to my negative nancy post.

I thought today would be better but it is not. Last night DH and I had a huge fight, my cousin called and I refused to talk to him, basically I was told that I ruined Christmas for the family. DH ended up sleeping on the couch and this morning he won't even talk to me, I tried to give him a hug and he wouldn't let me. So here I am back in bed alone, feeling miserable. No wonder everyone hates me and I feel like I have no friends, I must really be a terrible person.
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Re: Update to my negative nancy post.

  • No, you are not a terrible person! I'm so sorry that your day isn't going any better and is actually worse. I hate having fights with DH although usually by the next morning we can sort of forgive. I'm so sorry that your DH is still mad at you. I have those feelings of everyone must really hate me too. They suck. You are not hated, you are grieving. We are here for you. Sending you giant ((hugs)).
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  • You are not a terrible person.  All of our emotions are wonky and nobody can understand what we are going through (besides each other).

    I hope you feel better soon!  (((HUGS))) 

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  • Oh sweetie. I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I hope your days get better. 
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  • I am sorry things are so bad for you right now. I really hope everything sorts itself out, especially the DH thing. ((hugs))
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  • I am so sorry you are feeling this way. But please don't feel like everyone hates you. I know it's hard because most people don't understand what you've gone through. We all have our good days and bad days and this just happens to be one of your bad days. Just keep your head up and don't let anyone else bring you down. And always feel free to post here when you need to.
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  • You are not a terrible person.  I really hope things get better soon.  ((huge hugs!!))
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  • You are not a terrible person at all. I'm sorry that you're having to deal with all this right now.

     

    (((HUGS))) 

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  • ((huge hugs))  I'm so sorry you're going through this right now.  Having a bad day, week or year doesn't make you a terrible person.  Terrible things have happened and you're grieving. ((more hugs))
  • You aren't a terrible person.  You are someone who has had something TERRIBLE happen to you and this is what happens, people's emotions get bigger and deeper.

    Your husband knows now that you are ready to discuss and move on, so even though he is upset now, knowing this, he will probably be ready to talk VERY soon. 

    I hope it gets better for you!

  • You are not a terrible person! There are many times that your posts have put a smile on my face!

    Keep your head up and the days will get better!

     



     
  • You are a good, kind, sweet person. You are NOT terrible.

    I hope your day gets better.

    I am sorry, ((hugs)).

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  • Chin up sweetie. You're not terrible. People even husbands sometimes don't understand how we are feeling. You lost a baby... Its something terrible that happened to all of us. 

    Sleep in. Grab you a hot Starbucks. And let your hubs know you want to talk once he's home.

    Heres hoping to a better day ahead for you.  

  • I'm so sorry you had a fight with YH.  If it's any consolation, I've been told I ruined Christmas before and it was way before I got pg.  Holidays are stressful and everything we're going through doesn't help.  I'm sure YH will be begging to speak with you soon.  ((HUGS))

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  • I agree with the above, you are not a terrible person. All of these emotions are sometimes really overwhelming. So sorry you're not having a good day though. I hope it gets better!
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  • Oh sweetie, you're not a terrible person!  I'm sorry you're going through all this.  ((hugs))  Want me come b!tch slap someone for ya?

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  • I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy. My DH sometimes takes awhile to cool off after a fight too. Keep your head up and take the time to get your thoughts together so that when he's ready to talk you can be calm and collected to talk things through.

    ((big squeezy hugs)) 

  • I'm sorry you're hurting, but please believe me when I say you are NOT, NOT, NOT a terrible person!! (((BIG HUGS))) We're here to lean on when you need us. The pain and hurt and anger will pass. I hope you can see the bright side soon.
  • You are not a terrible person.  You are dealing with the losses of your LO's and you're allowed to have bad days.  Give your DH time to get over it and then talk to him.  I'm sorry you are having a bad couple days, especially before the holidays. Hope you feel better soon.  We are here for you.  **Hugs**
  • Everyone doesn't hate you, and you aren't a horrible person!

    I know things are tough right now, you guys have so much stress going on. Give yourself and your DH a break. There will be days that you will fight. And that totally sucks. But things will get better. You both have made it through a lot together!

    Just remember you aren't alone! We are always here for you. ((Huge Bear Hugs))

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