Late Term and Child Loss

Where did my good days go?

I've had nothing but bad days lately.  I don't know what to do. Maybe it's just because of the holidays or stress, but I am so tired of being so down.  I asked DH to take me on a vacation, but it's not really logical financially.  I'm so tired of this. I just want my little girl back.  I feel like I've reverted to the week everything happened.

((hugs everyone)) I'm so thankful for you all.

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  • I'm sorry. I've felt like this for the majority of December. Maybe you could take a short trip just to get away? Hugs.
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  • I know what you mean, I think I'm blaming it on the holidays... but maybe it's also just the reality really setting in.  This week I keep crying at my desk and trying to hide it, this sucks.  ::sigh::
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  • That's exactly how I feel (see post below).  I am hoping for everyone's sakes (it seems like a lot of us are in the same boat) it's because of the holidays and things will be a bit easier after the New Year.  

    (((HUGS)))


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  • I'm sorry.  I've been feeling like this also - I think it's the holidays for me.  Can you and your DH get away for a day trip or something?
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  • I've been wondering where you were. It's the holidays. The grief is like a roller coaster. You'll have some good days and then bam straight shot down to bad days. Eventually it ends up being one effed up roller coaster full of more good days than bad.
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  • If you can't take a vacay, definitely try just an inexpensive over night in the next town or two over.  Or even a day trip.  It will help give you some relief and focus!!  *hugs*
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  • ((hugs)) I think it's the holidays, I was doing ok the past few months, but as we get closer to Christmas, I'm crying daily.

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  • I totally have been feeling the same! Lately I've been more down than usual. It really sucks. I just want my babies back, too. I still feel like it's not real, like it was a nightmare. Know we're here for you and that our good days will come soon. *hugs*
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  • I've been feeling this lately too.  I wish I could say something to make it better.  Maybe you can just go out shopping or something for a day?  Hugs.  I hope you find some better days really soon.
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  • (((Hugs))) I definitely think the holidays don't help.

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  • I felt the exact same way last week I cried ever day last week at work and then at home this week has been better which is so odd to me I figured I would be crying all week this week. I think a lot of it has to do with the holidays and what we all had planned in our minds for our babies and none of those plans are coming true. I'm sorry you are hurting it truly sucks to be going through this.

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  • Oh sweets. I'm so sorry. The holidays are so hard. Last year I spent many many days not leaving my bed. This year it still seems really hard.
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  • I feel the same way. Maybe b/c of the holidays, maybe bc Connor was due in a couple weeks, maybe bc my period is late but I keep getting bfn  - I don't know - bu t I'm a complete mess these day. I've been having "ugly cry" incidents all week.  I haven't had a good day in a while.

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