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Holiday blues..

witchcatwitchcat
in Late Term and Child Loss
I've always gotten the holiday blues but this year far worse than any other.  After all me and my boyfriend have gone through in the past month, it makes me feel like nothing ever could make me as happy as I was knowing I was going to have my son.  It's slowly becoming easier to make it through each day, but each time I make a step forward I end up falling back a bit just because it hurts so badly still.  I still can't manage to avoid the guilt for having fun or remotely enjoying a moment, it makes me feel so horrible.  Today has been a day of feeling like a puzzle that's missing a HUGE important piece.  Since Alexi would have been my first child, I also have the feeling that I'll never feel satisfied until I make the decision to try again..  I miss him so much.  This Christmas is going to be the hardest one ever...
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Re: Holiday blues..

  • dandywarholdandywarhol member
    I'm sorry you're experiencing the holiday blues.  I think this time of year is especially hard for those of us who are missing our little loved ones.  {{hugs}}
    BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

    BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP  #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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  • lovemymaddylovemymaddy
    I'm so sorry. In talking to people on this board it sounds like the holidays are always tough for us but this first one is just horrible.  ((hugs))
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    Sending (((HUGS)))
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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