Im typically okay with being child free most of the time, but around the holidays, its just heartbreaking and all I want to do is cry, drink, and cry some more.
I need some new ways to ensure that I survive the next few weeks, or else I will be drinking myself stupid.
Re: This time of year blows
I got irrationally angry at people who have lights on their houses when I was driving through the neighborhood the other day.
Ideally I'd like to fall asleep on October 17th (I'll stay up for my birthday even though it sometimes is just a marker of yet another year passing by) and wake up on December 30th.
That would be awesome.
"It's a child, not a cheeto" Thanks mmariluh!
"Ew. I've read all of two posts from you, and you stink like rotting garbage."
Yeah, anytime from halloween through new years would be fine with me.
Im trying to get into the holiday spirit, but every damn time I try, something brings me right back down. I hate this feeling ;(
I know I should be thankful for what I have instead of dwelling on what I don't, and that even frustrates me that I tell myself that I am now allowed to feel a certain way. seriously, who does that to themselves?
OMG does it blow! We put a tree up and a wreath outside because otherwise I know my mom would say something stupid. It's easier just to have it in the corner and light it if she comes over. I take it down before new years... sometimes the day after Christmas. Three years ago my Mom asked why I took it down so early and I told her there didn't seem to be any point to having it up since there was (AHEM) no one around to see it. She said she liked to look at it. I said that wasn't what I meant. She said that if I wanted people to see it she could make sure my siblings and their kids all came over and looked at it when they came to town for Christmas. I said that wasn't what I was getting at and then let it go because I knew if I said any more she would end up saying something REALLY stupid and then I'd be mad at her. Every year since then she's made a point to come over and ooh and ahhh at my (ever shrinking) tree. This year my Dad showed up and said, "I'm supposed to look at your Christmas stuff. Your Mom said to be sure I saw all of it."
This summer they were planning the family Christmas (In August) and asked me when we wanted to have it. I said that time of year wasn't the best for us and that they should do it for whenever it works and we'd show up. She looked at me and said, "You know, Christmas isn't about kids and presents... it's about Jesus's birthday." I looked at her and said, "Oh! That must be why you made all those Jesus birthday cakes when we were growing up!" She knew I had here there... never had a Jesus birthday cake. Her reply? "Well, I intended to when you were kids."
Sad truth is Christmas isn't about Jesus's Birthday... (well, it can be if you make it that way... I'm sure it is for some people, but in general society) and it isn't for kids... it's for people WITH kids... the kids wouldn't know the difference if suddenly one day in December they woke up and there wasn't a huge tree covered in gifts... they would just keep living. The joy and magic are all for the benefits of the adults. And the retail industry!
I guess I had some stuff to say about December.
Yawn... second time I've yawned at you today! Opps, your boring... bye.