I had a hard time with BF at first and think my unhappiness with it really contributed to my developing PPD (pain, exhaustion since no one could take over feedings, feeling trapped in the house because I do not feel comfortable NIP... Etc). Now BF has gotten better - a little - but the PPD remains. I can't help but wonder if stopping BF might help. Did anyone find that it did? I just think it might be a relief both mentally and physically... But I feel guilty about wanting to stop, too....
Re: Breastfeeding vs formula feeding
hey ababymaybe,
my own breastfeeding experience was different than yours, but I do have some other stories to share, both of close friends. One: BF was working well, but she just felt so tied down, so used, so "dried up" emotionally (awefull wording for BF, but it works). When she stopped, all of that went away.
Two: a second child, BF and about 8 months PP. She was experiencing the anger of PPD (mad all the time, mad at husband, thinking about divorce even though nothing was wrong), she didn't want to do meds (and didn't see a doctor), so decided to wean and reevaluate after a month when hormones regulated. It worked for her.
Speaking to the guilt of quitting and going to formula, for our last 'Monday Check-in' we shared our experiences with BF, including troubles, guilt and dealing with that guilt. It's great that you are getting help, just continue with an open mind. If you do quit BF, with or without meds, you can find support here.