Maybe it's the progesterone/estrace, maybe it's that my plans I made to keep me busy fell through, or maybe it's the realization that iui number two is statistically more likely To be negative than positive... But I'm feeling sorry for myself.
I don't want to be Debbie downer, but I feel like when I am hopeful I am more disapointed at the -Hpt/beta. Hope brigs despair...what a craptastic attitude! Anyone else feel this way? I need to snap out of it.
Also sad....it's a beautiful fall day here, bright and sunny, and I'm curled up in my room. Maybe a hike with the dogs will make me feel better?
Thanks for reading, I guess this is part of the journey. Blah.
4/13/12--1st u/s. IDENTICAL TRIPLETS (?!?)
PAIF and SAIF welcome

Re: Another hormone induced pity party
Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.
IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.
Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.
Hope is the thing with feathers - that perches in the soul - and sings the tune without the words - and never stops - at all - (Emily Dickinson)