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I am a mom...to 22 children. It was a good week!

irishfrenchgirlirishfrenchgirl
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This week...was surprisingly a good week.  After last weekend's crying escapade I did not expect it. I laughed a lot. Hugged many children. Got to be a "mom" to several kiddos who are hurting more deeply than any 8 year old should. Taught my ASS off and saw the rewards.  If I cannot be a mother to my own child, I have rediscovered that I get to be a mom to 22 eight and nine year olds 5 days a week. I have been a teacher for 13 years.  How could I lose sight of this?? They count on me like my own child would.  They look up to me like my own child would. They learn from me like my own child would.  They grow...and change...because of me...just like my own child would. In the midst of all this TTC and it's failure, I lost sight of how lucky I am.  So many women cannot have children and live their life with few opportunities to BE with children. Every day, Monday through Friday, I get to be with the most amazing kids. We laugh, cry, experiment, write, craft, read and struggle over homework and behavior. I am a mom. Already.  Shame on me for forgetting. So now that I cannot have my own, I am going to continue to give my all to "my kids". They deserve it.  And so do I.
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Re: I am a mom...to 22 children. It was a good week!

  • ahappywifeahappywife

    I'm glad you had a good week.  Smile  I think it is very easy to lose sight of things when on the IF roller coaster. 

    I get my kid fix spending time with my niece and with my best friend's daughter.  I love being a part of their lives.  I will never be a mother myself, but that doesn't mean that I can't have impact on a child's life.

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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member

    I am glad you are having a better week...yay!  Yes you are right...you helped shape those children's lives. I was just thinking the other day about my job. I've been a nanny with the same family for 17 years...since they were 4 weeks old! The boy will be going to college next yr and the girl will be 15 in Dec and is going to her first snowball dance and I will be there to take pictures.

    I feel blessed that I am in their lives and they are in mine. I love them like they are my own. I've been to every play and performances that they did,every doctor's visit,kissed their boo boo's and held them when they were sick. The girl and I was talking about something the other day and she said...your just like my second mom. Too sweet. Hang in there...that was a nice post you wrote :)

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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