Spark of hope

Petunia844 · November 2011

Last night H and I were watching Justified and he asked me if I liked the name Raylan. Seems like something small...but not only did I answer that I did but I also said "It's kind of country, it goes well with Peyton." Talking about a hopefully future baby name and that it went well as a siblings name to Peyton came out almost naturally and I didn't cry. I'm still terrified we won't actually get our take home babies, but it seemed like a tiny spark of hope that if I do get pregnant again, parts of that pregnancy can still be how they were with Peyton. We have to take our tiny little sparks of hope and run with them right?

b0undl0v3 · November 2011

run with them! that is what I do.my hubby looked deep in thought the other day andi asked him what was up,he said trying to think of another boy name. We talked about it and we decided either first or middle name will be Bentley's middle name,also DH's middle name,to tie all my boys together.It felt nice just talking about the future and not dreading it.

dandywarhol · November 2011

The sparks of hope are definitely good. I think it gives us a little reprieve from all the sadness and grief.

I would have preferred to come to this realization a different way but one of the things DH and I have discovered after Sylvie's death is that we both *really* want to have a family. Before we were hesitant but decided to not try to not get pregnant - and we were lucky enough for it to happen twice. Sadly, here we are still without a LO. But I know that we will be parents, the question is just when and how. DH is adopted and I've always been comfortable with the thought of adoption. But after being pregnant with Sylvie I've realized that I want to try to have one naturally but after that we may adopt an additional child. I don't know. So much to think about. But I was hopeful when DH said he now knows he wants a family.

Petunia844 · November 2011

dandywarhol:
The sparks of hope are definitely good. I think it gives us a little reprieve from all the sadness and grief.
I would have preferred to come to this realization a different way but one of the things DH and I have discovered after Sylvie's death is that we both *really* want to have a family. Before we were hesitant but decided to not try to not get pregnant - and we were lucky enough for it to happen twice. Sadly, here we are still without a LO. But I know that we will be parents, the question is just when and how. DH is adopted and I've always been comfortable with the thought of adoption. But after being pregnant with Sylvie I've realized that I want to try to have one naturally but after that we may adopt an additional child. I don't know. So much to think about. But I was hopeful when DH said he now knows he wants a family.

I know what you mean by this.. I was nervous when we got pregnant that DH wasn't as ready as I was... it broke my heart to have to learn this way just how ready he was for his son. I just hope that I can give him the kids that we both ache for.

pb127 · November 2011

addegeorge:
Last night H and I were watching Justified and he asked me if I liked the name Raylan. Seems like something small...but not only did I answer that I did but I also said "It's kind of country, it goes well with Peyton." Talking about a hopefully future baby name and that it went well as a siblings name to Peyton came out almost naturally and I didn't cry. I'm still terrified we won't actually get our take home babies, but it seemed like a tiny spark of hope that if I do get pregnant again, parts of that pregnancy can still be how they were with Peyton. We have to take our tiny little sparks of hope and run with them right?

I like to think so! I love how you've put this as "tiny little sparks of hope"... I am going to be on the look out for more of them. We all need them!

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