An update on me...

LilMaggs · November 2011

After sitting down and talking with DH, we've decided to put a hold on TTC for a while. Possibly permanently. While putting it on hold due to broken foot, I (out of infinite boredom) had to discover a life outside my ute. This led to pony #1:

This is Kyrian, a 3 year old Clydesdale/Gypsy Vanner cross with a heart of pure gold. She's in the middle of 30 days of professional training, and enjoying her new pampered barn life.

After getting her settled into her new barn, I started *gasp* talking to people and discovering a social life again. I didn't realize how much I missed hanging out with people, and talking about normal things. New barn also led me to pony #2:

Meet Friday, a 4 year old National Show Horse (Saddlebred/Arabian cross). We're aiming for Arabian sport-horse nationals in 2013. For those of you who've seen the movie "Up", imagine Doug's personality inside a horse's body. That's Friday.

For the first time in four years, my depression isn't controlling my life. DH and I sat down and really talked about where we're at, and both of us are sick of the TTCAL stress. We know we want another child eventually, but we're committed to getting ourselves (and our marriage) back to the healthy place it was when we started TTC. Since deciding to focus on us, the kids we have, and the horses, things have improved dramatically for us. We're a happy, functional (well, mostly) family again. Life isn't perfect, but it's a hell of a lot better.

Thanks for being understanding of my absence, I had a lot to sort through and some very hard decisions to make. We'll take up TTC again eventually, if/when we're both fully ready to deal with that reality. We've talked adoption, but admittedly, we wouldn't be making that decision for the right reasons at this point. That's another thing to revisit another day.

jenn0021 · November 2011

I was just thinking about you the other day and wondering how you were doing. I'm really glad that you and DH have been doing well and are feeling good about this decision. I love your new ponies. Smile

Please come back and visit us often. We like you.

CashewsMommy · November 2011

{{{hugs}}} I am so glad you're doing well and you and your husband are doing well with your decision. That's the most important thing. Good luck with the new ponies! They're beautiful!!!

DCWJes · November 2011

Your ponies are so beautiful! I have missed you but I have been absent. I hope you find true happiness in whatever you and your DH decide, just don't feel shy around us! Love you girl!

Carolee · November 2011

I'm really glad that things are going better for you, and that you've made a plan that works for you and your DH. I love the pictures of your ponies! I'm so incredibly jealous - I've always loved riding and have wanted a horse ever since I can remember. Maybe someday!

mundayem · November 2011

Glad to hear you are doing better hun. I hope things continue to improve for you and your DH. How is he doing? Haven't seen any pics of his work recently. I'm so very jealous of the ponies.

Laurakat81 · November 2011

The ponies are beautiful. I'm glad that you've found a happy life outside of this TTCAL crap. I hope things continue to get better and better for you. We'll miss you!

Rawr08 · November 2011

Glad to hear you are doing well. Visit us often!!

butterfly843 · November 2011

Good to see you and your ponies are beautiful!

cutebride73 · November 2011

Such beautiful ponies!! They are lucky to have such a great owner!! I am glad to hear that things are well wth you and that you are in good place. That is a wonderful thing.