2nd EDD today, disjointed and rambly

lotus88 · November 2011

What a crappy thing for any of us to go through. Honestly, my second loss was awful, but somehow I'm dreading more my 3rd EDD. In a way it's as though today marks the cycle of my 3rd BFP, which was even harder than my second. It was just such a saga (went further, got my hopes higher, required two d&cs, friends totally over the whole m/c thing that kept happing). It's as though I have more anticipatory anxiety over what's to come next month. Also it will be the EDD of two coworkers. One the same day as me, the other two days before me.

Ugh, now I feel guilty that my focus is more on my third than my second loss. It might've had even more potential, but just couldn't stay stuck. I just want to get it over with and keep this LO growing. Maybe finally have it all behind me.

Please please please keep growing LO.

jen629 · November 2011

{{{HUGS}}

Pachita · November 2011

((Big hugs sweetie))

xoladiebug · November 2011

Sounds like you're in emotional overload right now. I hope you find some peace in the approaching days and try to remain focused of the life inside you

) ((Big Hugs))

Izabella22 · November 2011

*BIG HUGS*

lauralew · November 2011

I honestly can not imagine experiencing the pain of a miscarriage more than once. Especially all in a row. I remember how betrayed I felt by my body and the world...to have that feeling hit me three times back to back would have devastated me.

I have so much hope for your current pregnancy. I know it's so hard to feel hopeful with all that despair in your past, causing so much anxiety for the future. I'm thinking of you lots and sending you tons of love.

Keep growing, little one!!

coreysmomma · November 2011

I'm sorry. Don't allow guilt; you can feel however you want. I feel bad that I am not as sad over my August angel because I am pregnant again, and then when I think about my August angel, I tell myself not to feel sad because I have my take home baby coming. No matter what, we are all combating feelings. Feel how you feel and allow it. And in the meantime, keep telling you LO to grow. I hope that helps in some way. I feel like my own post to you is disjointed and rambly.

lotus88 · November 2011

lauralew:

I honestly can not imagine experiencing the pain of a miscarriage more than once. Especially all in a row. I remember how betrayed I felt by my body and the world...to have that feeling hit me three times back to back would have devastated me.

I have so much hope for your current pregnancy. I know it's so hard to feel hopeful with all that despair in your past, causing so much anxiety for the future. I'm thinking of you lots and sending you tons of love.

Keep growing, little one!!

This kind of sums up my perspective. There's no up or down. I felt (so why shouldn't i continue to feel) completely out of control and I have absolutely no faith in my body. I know it's important to think positively. Better for LO, better for me. I just can't reframe it in my head enough to really accept it. It wont' sink in despite things going so well this time. Thanks for understanding.

lotus88 · November 2011

Thanks ladies. I'm trying to distract myself with playing with my registry. That's a scary (but I have to say fun) leap of faith. That has to count for something.

Froggy76 · November 2011

Big ((HUGS))

Eris-Alexis · November 2011

((Big HUGS)) I'm sorry sweetie.

StaceyM06 · November 2011

((Hugs))

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