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XP: How do you know?

rubysue267rubysue267 member
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I posted this on my birth month board, but on second thought think this might be the more appropriate place to ask. I have written and deleted this post several times over the past few hours, but I think I just need to send it out into the void. I know I'm only 10 days post-partum so it's likely that I'm still riding the wave of hormonal changes, but I feel awful. Lost. Stuck in a dark closet with no way out. More times over the last few days than I'd like to admit, I've found myself sobbing in the shower or under the covers in bed. I feel like I am letting down my husband and my son. I feel like things are never going to get better and life will never be happy again. Today DH gently mentioned that maybe I should talk to someone, but a big part of me is afraid that I'll be told it's too soon to be feeling any legitimate sorrow and if there's a real problem I'll be afraid to seek out help again. On the other hand, I'm afraid they're going to say this isn't normal. I feel like such a failure and my throat hurts from fighting back sobs all the time. I just don't know what to do.Does it get better? When does it become appropriate to seek help?
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Re: XP: How do you know?

  • posvaneposvane

    You are not alone! You are not a failure. It's not you that feels this way. It's your mental reaction to how your body is feeling after giving birth to a wonderful life! 

    It does get better. The first few weeks are so hard. Every part of your body is adjusting.. everyone in your family is adjusting... no one is sleeping.

    Cry, cry and cry. Get it out. I would talk to your general practitioner or OB about PPD, just to check. I was put on a low dose of Celexa after DD1. It mellowed me out so MUCH! 

    I went off of it before trying for DD2 and 2 weeks after having DD2 went back on it and am still on it.

    Everyone is different. You need to make sure you are YOU on a daily basis and it if means medicine will help you... why not? Good luck!

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  • ksspiffksspiff member

    Hey rubysue,

    At 10 days, it may just be some extreme 'baby blues' caused by all the hormones.  That doesn't make it any better, that doesn't  mean it's abnormal.  The awefulness you are feeling is LEGIT!

    Kudos to your DH.  If he'll let you, talk over all your feelings with him.  Ask him to keep an eye on you to see if it's getting better or worse.  Do you have a 2 week post-partum appt. with your OB? (I did)  Talk about it at that appointment (I think I spent most of my 2 week appointment crying...)  Even if your doc isn't ready to start you on therapy or meds this early, he/she will have it on his/her radar already.  If you call back after a few more days he/she may just be able to call something in for you, OR see you again right away!

    Don't have an appointment scheduled until your 6 week or so?  I'd say go ahead, call the office, tell them you'd like to see the doc for PPD soon and just go for it.  If nothing else, you'll be able to talk to someone who can be objective and has lots of experience.  You can talk about treatment plans and when you could start on them.

     

    P.S. Yes, it gets better.  It's so hard to emotionally believe that will be true, but rationally, keep telling yourself.  And try to get some more sleep if you can.  Sleep really does help everything. ~hugs~

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