fert report

Mitzi Bishi · November 2011

One day in and we've already 'lost' 3.

I know I should look at the positive side that we have 4, but once again it's unlikely we'll have anything to freeze and that's hoping on everything there's something to even transfer.

I feel like I'm already getting defensive and protective as if that will change anything if we get another BFN.

This is the difficult aspect of going through IVF-ICSI twice. I have something to compare to and know how quickly those options dwindled.

The thought of doing this again (which would be our last cycle) pains me to no end. I feel so wrapped up in worrying about the future and even if we get a success doing this again for a sibling sounds daunting. We haven't ruled out adoption, but our circumstances and situation make it extremely difficult.

Sorry to complain. I'm just scared of experiencing the emotional trauma again.

Sloane99 · November 2011

It's so hard to stay positive all the time, isn't it? I know that we all know each cycle is completely different, it's hard not to think about "what happened last time", I have done it too but please try not to compare cycles. This could absolutely be it for you, no reason to think otherwise.

Please take care of yourself, I hope the next few days pass quickly and you get a couple rockstars to transfer.

farmerlynda · November 2011

I'm so sorry that this is bringing up all those awful emotions from last cycle... and sorry that you lost three already. I hope that all 4 continue to grow beautifully, and that this is your cycle. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Like PP said... take care of yourself!

Bella2u07 · November 2011

I'm so sorry that you feel defeated already. I agree with Sloane, it's very difficult to stay positive, but there is no reason for this cycle not to work. We are here for you, cheering you on and being positive for you!!!!

This is your sticky BFP cycle!!!!!!

::hugs::

Mrs.McIrish · November 2011

I've experienced the emotional trauma for both IVF's that I make crappy embies so I totally get your fear. You can complain until the cows come home to me. No one else really understands what we go through. Big hugs and I hope your remaining embies are growing strong.

BeeBee08 · November 2011

I'm sorry this is such a rough cycle for you. We're here for you and we can positive, so you just let yourself feel what you need to and we'll take care of the rest. ((hugs))

reb259 · November 2011

I am sorry I know it is hard. When a cycle begins you have so much hope and excitement and as it drags on negativity begins to creep in. Keep your chin up, you are still in the game. I will be send you good vibes!!

BTW...your siggy pic from up literally brought tears to my eyes. I have evrything crossed for you this cycle is the ONE!!

softbalangel · November 2011

I'm sorry this has been such a rough cycle for you.

((hugs))

limpetfan · November 2011

I completely understand where you're coming from -- wanting to think this will be different, but constantly comparing to the failed cycle. Hopefully at least 1 of those 4 will be a trooper, and it won't matter if there's something to freeze or not. Huge ((hugs)) to you!

hootie123 · November 2011

Mitzi - Wishing you the best - and please try to remain hopeful. I know it is so so hard to be going through this a second time. And no one wants to go through this again. I've had nothing to freeze from both of my IVFs now - so please don't focus on that - the best ones will be in you and that is all that matters.

XV11Star · November 2011

It's like PTS, I am so sorry!!!

But -- this time IS different, it's going to turn out differently for you....stay strong, this is your time, your sticky take home baby! Wink

illinigal · November 2011

Hugs. I hope you have a rockstar embryo to transfer.

Sarah226 · November 2011

I'm sorry. Don't worry about complaining... that's what we're all here for! Ditto all PP's... try not to compare cycles. As you know, sometimes the picture perfect situation still ends up in a BFN, so all you can do is focus on the 4 that you DO have, and hope they continue to grow and get you your BFP. Easier said than done, of course. And also try not to think about the what-if's if it doens't work... if that ends up being the case, they'll be plenty of time to stress and be sad about that later. For now, try to focus on the here and now and this cycle and these embies.

I hope you start feeling better! Good luck!

mtlaurel · November 2011

HUGE hugs. I know how you feel. I was mourning our second cycle from transfer on. Try to remind yourself that it's not over yet, and there will be ample time and opportunity to worry and agonize about another potential cycle later. I know that's easier said than done. Wishing you lots of luck.

cad828 · November 2011

I'm sorry you're having a hard time. This journey is never easy & it's really difficult to stay positive & to find the bright side of things. Please don't count yourself out yet, one of those little rock stars could just be your take home baby! Keep the faith!! Lots of T&P'S headed your way, take care of yourself!

MAbride0808 · November 2011

(((hugs))). It is so difficult to stay positive, but try to hold onto any hope you have. I think that even that little spark of hope is important.

I hope you have some rockstars in there and that you have some good choices come your 5dt. Would they consider moving up the transfer if the numbers dwindled more?

BTW- I LOVE your siggy pics. I haven't seen Up since before we started trying. I'm sure I would view it totally different if I saw it now.

blueberries8 · November 2011

(((hugs))) I think this cycle still has great potential for you, but I am in a similar place emotionally. Actually, I was feeling quite positive about this cycle but now I have the same issue of the low E2 that won't budge and dominant follicles as I did last cycle. I feel like this cycle is just a mirror image of my last one...so anyway, I really get how you are feeling, but I guess we both really need to push ourselves to believe that this is the time things will be different. Thinking of you and sending tons of good growth vibes to your embryos!

lynn0926 · November 2011

((hugs)) It is a scarey process. Hopefully you won't have to worry about any snow babies because you get your BFP!

brookelynpaisley · November 2011

I'm so sorry.

Mitzi Bishi · November 2011

Thank you all.

While I wish I didn't have company to know how it feels I truly appreciate the support from every last one of you. I'm glad there's someone out there who understands.

I decided to make some chocolate cake from scratch and a chestnut, parsnip, apple soup for some extra comfort foods to keep myself busy.

DH will be out of town for the rest of the week, so I have to work on not wallowing about... or make more friends so someone can help eat all of this food!

lovemygs · November 2011

Ditto all the PPs. It is so hard to stay positive when you get crappy news, but just think how quickly things can change back around. IF is always such a roller coaster.

We're here for you and rooting for you!!

AmCheri · November 2011

Oh Mitzi, big hugs. Emotional trauma -- that's it exactly. I so want success for you and for all of us. Don't worry about feeling defensive. We do whatever we have to do to get through this. Try to put the possibility of frosties out of your mind if you can manage. Concentrate on a strong embie or two and a perfect ET. We have to keep moving just one step at a time. We're all thinking of you!!

nino770 · November 2011

Im sorry, I hope all goes well for you...

Toni79 · November 2011

Hi there Mitzi! I feel your pain! I also had my ER yesterday and my first fert report today. And like you I was hoping more fertilized.

https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/59808984/ShowThread.aspx#59808984

I know it is hard to stay positive and not compair to previous cycles. DH has been getting annoyed with me all day for being so negative! Then I'm annoyed that he is so positive. LOL!

All we can really do is wait, hope, and pray for the best. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that this is your cycle for a BFP!

GL and keep us posted!

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