Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

I thought I was doing better each day...

Until I just saw on FB that my college roommate is pregnant with twins.

This sucks. I feel like it just hit me all over again. I want to crawl up in a ball and cry the rest of the day. Crying

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Re: I thought I was doing better each day...

  • I'm sorry.  *hugs*  I've learned that you'll have that.  You'll feel okay, be having a good day, then BAM.  Something happens and it all hits you like a ton of bricks yet again and you feel sad for a while.  But, for me at least, those days are coming fewer and farther between.  This morning was rough (forgot I had written my due date on a post it stuck to my December calendar and checked it to make sure I had my holidays marked off and saw it there).  I'd been doing well for a little while and bam.  Just hang in there.  It will get better.

    BFP #1 9-15-11; EDD 5-28-12. US 6w2d, growth

    BFP #2 12-6-11 and 12-7-11; EDD 8-17-12. US 6w6d measuring 5w6d. Misoprostol Assisted m/c 1-16-12 at 9w3d.

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    I'm sorry.  *hugs*  I've learned that you'll have that.  You'll feel okay, be having a good day, then BAM.  Something happens and it all hits you like a ton of bricks yet again and you feel sad for a while.  But, for me at least, those days are coming fewer and farther between.  This morning was rough (forgot I had written my due date on a post it stuck to my December calendar and checked it to make sure I had my holidays marked off and saw it there).  I'd been doing well for a little while and bam.  Just hang in there.  It will get better.

    I want to throw up and punch her in the gag simultaneously.

     

     

    I should add that I do love this girl.... It's just not fair.  

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  • I'm not ashamed to say I've hidden people's updates on Facebook. It seems like everyone is due in April (when my first MC took place) and everyone is posting bump pictures. It's not that I'm not happy for them, but I don't want to see it right now.
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    I'm not ashamed to say I've hidden people's updates on Facebook. It seems like everyone is due in April (when my first MC took place) and everyone is posting bump pictures. It's not that I'm not happy for them, but I don't want to see it right now.

    This.  I've hidden some preggo friends from my wall so I don't have to see their constant updates and complaints about morning sickness and their inevitable sonogram pics, etc.  Nothing wrong with that at all.

    BFP #1 9-15-11; EDD 5-28-12. US 6w2d, growth

    BFP #2 12-6-11 and 12-7-11; EDD 8-17-12. US 6w6d measuring 5w6d. Misoprostol Assisted m/c 1-16-12 at 9w3d.

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  • imageKareBear0408:
    I'm not ashamed to say I've hidden people's updates on Facebook. It seems like everyone is due in April (when my first MC took place) and everyone is posting bump pictures. It's not that I'm not happy for them, but I don't want to see it right now.

    Samesies!  I don't feel bad for their weight gain or stupid cravings...I don't wanna hear it!  I will get over it and be happy for them, but I don't need their pregnancy in face every day.  I know it is probably silly, but I am jealous and will act like a child if I want to!

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  • Facebook is torture for me right now.  I made the mistake of logging on yesterday and seeing pictures of everyone's SUPER CUTE babies dressed up for Halloween.  I think I am just going to take a long break from Facebook ...
    Married since 7/25/2009
    BFP #1 9/25/2011 | EDD 6/1/2012 | M/C 10/26/2011 at 8w6d
    BFP #2 3/13/2012 | EDD 11/23/2012
    9DPO hcg: 45; Prog: 41 | 14DPO hcg: 694 | 17DPO hcg: 2733 | 28DPO hcg: 53,006
    First u/s 4/13 showed a beating heart! Second u/s 5/2 showed a HB of 163! Let's GROW, baby!
    He's here! Kellen born 11/16/12 - 8 lbs 8 oz 22 inches long via scheduled c-section (breech baby, gestational diabetes mama)
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                                 Breanna, Ellie and 
                                 our 2 rainbow babies.

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  • It does suck.  As much as you are happy for others that are expecting, it is just so hard not to think "that should be me."  My co-worker's wife is due a week after I would have been...the updates around the office are killer.  Granted, it has only been a week since we found out about our m/c so maybe it will get easier? 

    Somehow, I have a feeling we'll have these BAM moments where it hits us again for some reason.  Last night it was when the clock hit 6:30 which is the time of our check-up last week when we found out our bad news.  Crying while making dinner was not fun.  I'm hopeful these moments start spreading out.  Hugs to you.

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    BFP#1 8/24/11, EDD 5/5/12, D&C 10/24/11 due to missed m/c

    BFP #2 2/1/12, EDD 10/11/12.  Baby arrived 10/9/12

    BFP #3 5/6/14, EDD 1/14/15

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