I am looking for another TTCALer who has not had a + HPT in 3 years or more.
It seems like the longer I go without a + HPT, the worse I feel my odds are. I am going on 4 years since my loss. 4 fvcking years since I saw a positive pregnancy test. I am bitter and sad. DH says he has never seem me like this (even when I went through my loss, I was with my ex-h then). I feel desperate. I am wondering if anyone else has gone this long without a + HPT, and if so, how in the fvcking h3ll did you deal with it? I really need some help here. I am literally at my wits end, I am to the point where I don't want to go to work. I would rather lay in bed all day.
Re: 3+ years since + HPT? Come in
bfp #1 10/15/2009 m/c 11/4/09 10 weeks Lily you are not forgotten
bfp #2 4/5/2010 CP, m/c 4/12/10 5 weeks Baby Lo
Diagnosed PCOS 10/10 RX 1500 mg Metformin/day
bfp#3 4/5/2011 Missed m/c discovered 5/24/2011 (10w 5d) baby Asher stopped growing at 6 weeks
I know he is playing with his siblings in heaven right now...
rx'd factor II gene mutation 7/11 prescribed 5000 units Heparin daily
rx'd Sjogren's Disease 8/11
bfp #4 9-6-2012 RAINBOW Baby Ky born 5-9-13
bfp #5 8-26-14 RAINBOW #2 Due 5-8-2015
I too am not at 3 years, but we have been trying for almost 2.5 years. I can imagine how you are feeling. I too go through the feeling of being alone. I have a friend who was pregnant and due at the same time as me when I had my loss. She is now 16 weeks pregnant with her second and I have yet to even had or got pregnant with my first take home baby.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. It really sucks when "good" people get the things that "not so good" people deserve and the "not so good" people get the things that we "good" people deserve.
Jenn
3 IUI's all BFN
IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN
Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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