We found out Friday afternoon that I AM a carrier of DS's genetic deletion. This means that every child here on out has a 50/50 chance of receiving it. The upside is that my x-inactivation is random so if this baby is a girl she has a very high chance of only being a carrier if she receives it.
Of course then we had to go to a wedding and listen to drunk people tell us how lucky we are to have a family and ask us a million times when DS is going to get a brother/sister. (We shared with my parents about the pregnancy and my diagnosis so that my mom can get tested. If she's a carrier then my brother and cousins should get tested). we didn't tell anyone else about the pregnancy or diagnosis simply because we weren't emotionally ready. It sucked.
If this comes back as de novo I may fall apart. However, this will be our last child. I have a rare genetic disorder that I already have a 50/50 chance of handing on (it's autosomal dominant) and now this one that is also 50/50 chance (but has a high chance of only affecting boys).
I just can't handle this emotional waiting game again. Now we just wait till we can do an amnio and go from there.
Thanks for all your support this past 17 months ladies.