TTC After a Loss

Tarot Cards

So last night one of the bars we went to had a circus theme, kissing booth, games and a tarot card reading.  I had never done anything like that before- thought it would be fun...I mean I couldn't get any more bad news then the loss I had earlier right?

Well the guy was spot on... saying that I had a feeling of being left out (everyone around me is getting pg), a feeling of emptiness,  and how this (question I had to ask the cards) was consuming me, how I was doing everything in my power to make this situation happen and still I feel like I am getting nothing out of it.  He said if change was going to happen I had to be the one to take reigns and make it happen myself, I had to be the one to put 100% into it (which I am sure I am doing already).  When I asked how long till the change would take place, he said a matter of weeks or months but not years (I would have flipped if he said years!) When asked about another loss or death- he said no other loss or death but def a feeling of fear for a loss (that one hit hard cus I assume that whenever I do get PG Ill have that huge fear of another m/c). 

It was very interesting how spot on he was...but of course this was all in the name of fun.  

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  • I def am not going to put my eggs in this basket- but I do think it helps me mentally think everything will be ok.  And when he said not another loss just the fear of it- I will cling on to that when I do get pg again :).  It was fun- but I can see how some ppl do this often and go to the palms readings and such often. 
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  • I totally hear you about finding comfort in the strangest places.

    My friend and I went to a spiritual reader, mostly for funnsies.  She saw my anger and my loss.  Told me that constant worry and anger over it was closing my heart and womb but if I could push through it, I would be announcing pregnancy in March.

    I don't necessarily believe it but I hope she's right. 

    The cards also read that I would have a daughter, so we shall see.

  • I got a stormy reading and it's eerie how spot on she was about a lot of things. I think the reading you got is awesome. FX that it happens soon for you!
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  • My MIL called my DH 2 days before my BFP and told him I was pregnant.  (She's very spiritual and has had a touch of something his whole life)  She told him I would carry through the summer with no problems.  It did lift my spirits, but unfortunately it was wrong.  So I think if the news is good, its great for your mentality but I won't be 100% reassured. Ever. Again.

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  • This exactly.  I'm hoping for something positive I can hold onto now while TTC and (FX) in the future when PG again.  Maybe a tarot reading is in my future...
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  • I had a reading a few weeks ago, and it was scary how dead on she was. The first thing she said was "I want you to know everything is going to be okay." Then she asked me if I had had a recent m/c because she said "my hormones are going crazy talking to you." I told it had happened 3 weeks prior. She told me that I would be PG soon (a girl) and kept reinforcing that I just needed to breath and everything would be okay. She also knew a TON of other things about me she would never know.

    My mom had a reading from the same person when I was in college. My longtime boyfriend had broken up with me the night before my mom's reading. The first thing she said to my mom was "you have a daughter?" "And her boyfriend just broke up with her?" Then went on to tell my mom he would come back to me, that I shouldn't take him back, but that I would, etc and he would break my heart again. All true. So while I know I shouldn't take everything she says literally, it does give me hope!

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