Yesterday was our six month anniversary of Avari's passing. For me one of the hardest things is not knowing anything about her. I wonder how curly her hair would be, if she would like vegetables, and if she would be crawling yet. Do you wonder about your child? If so, what do you wonder about?
Re: Wondering
I wonder the same thing. It has been less than 48 hours since Sylvie died. I got to hold her but never got to see the color of her eyes. I don't know what color her hair was, if she would've been a good sleeper or what it would feel like to breastfeed her. I had an anterior placenta so I never even got to feel her kick. That is so painful - I feel like i barely got to know her and then she was gone.
All the lost opportunities are what hurts the most.
BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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There are so many things I wonder about. The sound of his cry, the color of his eyes, his personality. Its just not fair that we are all in this situation.
Congrats to Heatherhah! Baby girl has finally arrived!
Congrats to my Labor Buddy SouthernBellaKS
I wonder what it would have been like to raise a child with no legs, 1/4 of her fingers and a fused hand. What would it have been like if she were able to live through all the damage she was experiencing and of course we didn't terminate. I wonder if she would ever be able to walk with prosthetics. I wonder at what age. I wonder what kind of life she would have lived. And worst of all, I wonder how much suffering she would have continued to experience to live that so called life.
I try not to wonder as much as I can.
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
He was 4lbs. 9oz. and 17&1/2in. He was absolute perfection.
Mommy and Daddy love and miss you Avery.