My Story

greekimport83 · October 2011

Hi Everyone,

I haven't written on any of the boards before, but I figure what better place to start to share my story. This past summer has been gone from the best to the worst summer of my life. My husband and I were looking forward to welcoming our first child..a baby boy who would bring us so much joy. My pregnancy had been pretty typical, morning sickness and all the other fun pregnancy side effects lol. On May 16th I thought his movements were decreased so I went into my OB's office and had a NST and an ultrasound. He was doing just fine. Turns out I had an anterior placenta and he was breach. This led to decreased fetal movement, which my doc said was normal. On May 26th, I had another ultrasound just to confirm his position...our little stinker was still the wrong way, but he had time to flip. A week later, on June 2nd, my dad unexpectedly passed away. We were both devastated to say the least. While he was dying, my dad kept saying "the baby, the baby..." This was a thursday, and we buried him on Monday. Across from his grave, there is the "baby circle" and I remember commenting on how sad it was. On Thursday of that week, one week after my dad passed away I had a routine appointment. This was 2 weeks after a normal ultrasound showed a bouncing baby boy. My reg doc was on vacaion, so I saw someone in the same practice. I was 33w3d at this time. He couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler and said he would look with ultrasound. My husband and I weren't really concerned at this point. During the ultrasound, he wouldn't say a thing, or show me the screen. I kept asking and he kept ignoring me. Finally after what felt like eternity he stood up and said "There's no heartbeat" and walked out of the room!

All I can say is we lost it. We drove to the hospital where a specialist did another ultrasound and this time i could see that there was nothing. I was induced that night June 9th and labored until June 11, 2011 at 1241am when my beautiful angel Kiran was born an angel. He joined his papou in heaven. Autopsy showed that he was perfectly healthy. It has been 4 months and some days it feels like it was just yesterday. It is nice knowing that there is a group of people who know exactly how I feel, without me having to say a word. thanks for listening.