Depressed???
rlmanning
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I am not sure what is going on with me right now... I feel like I could cry at the drop of a dime. I am just not feeling right...
All that really matters to me is the baby. I could care less about work, the house, my poor hubby, if dinner gets done ect. I mean I go through the motions and do the stuff that needs to be done and make sure that DH is kissed and told I love you.
Since I had to go back to work this feeling has gotten worse. My LO is with my inlaws during the day (my inlaws are amazing and I love them dearly). But I feel like when I pick her up I have missed so much. I feel kinda distant from her, almost like she is not mine she is theirs... it is such a weird feeling. It just makes me so sad. She does give me HUGE smiles when she see's me for the first time when I get home. But I miss her so much during the day...
I never thought I would want to be a SAHM but now I am regretting not discussing this option with my DH before we were prego. I am feeling like I have animosity towards DH for not understanding how I want to be home with her and not figuring out how to make that happen. But really I should not have these feelings, it isnt his fault.... I never thought this is what I would want... But now I would give ANYTHING To stay home with her!
I am afraid I may be a little depressed or may have some depression coming on... I dont think DH will understand if I tell him how I am feeling... 
I need to snap out of this funk fast! UGH...
Our World!!
Blaine Emerson Bailey Rae
3-31-14 6-10-11
Re: Depressed???
I know exactly how you feel- sometimes I just can't snap out of this funk. I am not crying or feeling super sad, I just don't feel like myself. I am a SAHM, so don't think that you would be immune if you stayed home. I used to be a work-a-holic, and now I kind of miss having something to do. I know that the best "work" I can do is to be with my LO, but I can't help but feel like I'm not being productive to society or that no one would even miss me if I was gone.
I was thinking about talking to a counselor about it or maybe getting a part time job doing something I have interest in- maybe the Hallmark store.
Could you work PT? If not, then talk to someone. And for the record, your LO will never prefer ANYONE over you- you are his/her mother. Your LO knew you for 9 months and will always chose you! I used to work at a daycare, and even though the kids were with us more than their parents during the week, nothing compared to their moms!