Well, it's here... we are now in our 12th cycle as of this week
This past week has been a bit miserable for me and now I'm just kind of numb about the whole situation. This was not a milestone I was hoping or even anticipating to reach...and it sucks the big one.
This weekend we have a big family gathering and I need to try and be at least somewhat personable - so I just needed to vent a bit; DH has been out of town on business this week, so not only has it been lonely in the house but I've had nobody to really talk to about it (our family/friends don't know we've been TTC)...and this weekend is going to be absolutely brutal because they'll all be poking around in our business.. you know, the typical "So when are we going to see a little one running around?"
I'm reallllllly hoping I can keep it together.
Re: 12 months
I'm so sorry... that is a very difficult thing to cope with on your own ;(
T & P for a BFP soon!
Thank you so much
I appreciate the T&P and kind words... I just have a feeling this weekend is going to be utterly unbearable. I'm hoping I can get all the anger and disappointment out before then so that putting on my big girl panties will be a little easier come Saturday/Sunday. 
And it totally sucks that DH is out of town; but he's truly wonderful...and has called me several times each day to see how I'm doing. I know it's really tough for him too, so we're both trying to be each others rock. He'll be back home late tomorrow night, so luckily we'll have some quiet alone time to just *breathe* and talk things through before the madness begins.
...until then, I have wine.