Wondering whether I've got something to really be concerned about...Do I have depression or baby blues? I often just feel baseline, if that makes sense. e.g. not feeling naturally very smiley or bubbly. I am worried on the effect this may have for my daughter who is 6 wks old.
I had an unplanned c/s due to high heart rate of baby -apparently due to my fever. There was an infection and it was for the best, but I wonder if I have a feeling of disconnect with her (even though I'm breastfeeding), b/c of the c/s.
Have any of you ever felt like this? Am I normal -will time "heal"? or Should does this sound alarming? p.s I have no feelings of hurting anyone.
TIA
Re: unplanned c/s post 6 wks
IMO time will heal. I had unplanned c-section and I remember it helped me to write out my birth story, feelings and all in a journal to just get it all out. I too was disappointed that I did not have the birth I had "planned" but of course was thankful everyone was healthy in the end. I remember being so tired weeks after my c-section that I barely had any energy in the middle of the night during BF to talk to my DD or sing to hear -- I had all the thoughts in my mind but could not get them out. I think it is normal for it to take a while to bond with a new baby, especially if you are still recuperating from the surgery. At this age they don't give you any recognition (is that that right word?) back as far as smiling or really cooing when happy -- they basically poop, sleep and eat. But, your baby's first smile will soon come (if it hasn't already).
Hang in there, your bond with your baby will continue to grow stronger! If you don't feel like your normal self (bubbly, etc) because of tiredness then I think that is normal but if you don't feel tired and still don't feel happy, it might be worth mentioning to your OB -