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My heart is literally breaking

PrincessShay80PrincessShay80
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Dh and I have been trying for almost 2 years.  We had our first IUI last month and I got my period last night.  I know that in the fertility world one IUI not working isnt that big of a deal, and we are going to do a few more, before moving to IVF (if needed) but we were so optimistic, I have 5 mature follies, and we have 19 million post wash. 

Yesterday was also the anniversary of my father in law, my husband was crying so hard about that and not being pregnant. He said that he is so scared that this mom wont see his kids, my MIL is almost 81 years old. yes, I know thats old, DH is 38 and my MIL had him when she was 42 years old.  I am only 28, so I know our chances are good with my age, but my heart just breaks for my DH.  I cannot image my mom not seeing my kids.

Our Journey from two to three! 3 IUI's, 2 IVF's, decided to move to foster/adopt. 12/24/2009 Baby C born, 2/1/2010 placed with us, 5/17/2011 Adoption final- we are finally a forever family! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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Re: My heart is literally breaking

  • Bamboo2008Bamboo2008
    Sending ((HUGS)) your way.  I'm so sorry this IUI didn't work.  I know it is hard on you and DH, but hopefully your RE is learning from each cycle which means you'll be that much closer to your BFP next cycle.  Good luck!
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  • MZANSMZANS
    I really do feel for you.  I know how heart breaking this whole process is.  Every single month I fall into a deep depression when AF comes.  As soon as you are ready to start the next cycle, it does get a little better.  Hopefully this next cycle will work for you!  I will keep my fingers crossed.  Good Luck!
    Lilypie - Personal pictureLilypie First Birthday tickers So far we've done: Clomid Challenge/HSG/SA 1 Unmedicated IUI 2 Clomid IUIs 2 Femara IUIs 1 injectable IUI -2nd Femara IUI resulted in a CP (Beta was 16) -Another CP in May. (Beta 19 Prog 13) -Ectopic Pg - (Beta 27, 67, 430, 850) - methotrexate shot & biopsy -Forced 3 month Break 1/4/10 - Uterine septum removed by Hysteroscopy 1/18/10 - Told I have inflammation in uterus. 6 weeks of antibiotics. 2/27/10 - Another confirmed ectopic. 2 shots of methotrexate after an ER visit. Currently doing acupuncture and trying to lose weight. TTC since 3/07 -
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  • lovemymonkeylovemymonkey
    I'm so sorry. My heart breaks with every unsuccessful cycle. it didn't matter if it was when I was just charting, doing IUIs, or IVFs... they are all painful. ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) 
    After 5 years of TTC, 3 IUIs, 5 IVFs, 2 FETs, multiple losses and an adoption that wasn
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  • Makinroom4babyMakinroom4baby
    We have lots in common. I'm 28 and my DH is 38. His parents are much older than mine and we worried about them never meeting our grandkids. We've been trying for 4 years and we did successfully adopt our first child. We have still been trying and seeing the RE. We had 7 failed IUIs and are told that IVF may be our only option. DH always had great numbers post wash and my eggs are healthy. But my hormones are all out of whack from the endo so conceiving is hard. It's tough that's for sure. I hope you get to see those 2 pink lines really soon!
    Nia, Mom to Jayden Michael, Born 12/04/06, Adopted 12/07/06
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    And Elias Parker, Born 3.5 weeks early 12/20/2011 image
    FINALLY!!! After 7 years of infertility! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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  • smd8.14.04smd8.14.04
    I am so sorry, IF is so hard.  The disappointment is hard to bear month after month and year after year.  Just hang on to your DH and you will get through this...hugs
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  • MeechieNJMeechieNJ
    I'm so sorry that IUI #1 didn't work. I know I felt horrible after #1 not working and when #2 failed I literally had a panic attack in the parking lot of my RE's office. But you really just have to think positive thoughts and as hard as it is try not to let this consume your thoughts because it makes it worse. Hang in there and good luck!
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