the less prepared I feel.
Seriously, I know that makes no sense. But every single day I have long stretches where it feels like I have finally tipped over into labor...and then things slow down. Which is really frustrating. I know this could go on for a few more weeks, but even my midwife is saying "Any time now" and telling me who is on call when. With my history of very short labors she wants me to know when the midwife on call is from out of town so I can call sooner.
Now it's been "any time now" for so long that I am starting to not believe it's going to happen. At all. lol.
To top it off, my mom is here with me. Which is wonderful. She lives three and a half hours away and we were really worried that she wouldn't make it here in time. But I feel bad because she is off of work and sleeping on my couch. She tells me not to worry; she took FMLA time to come "take care of me". It's good that she's here. I was feeling totally overwhelmed and the frequent contractions are uncomfortable enough that I don't feel safe driving in town. But I do worry about her boss getting mad, or her ending up with an enormous pile of work to do when she gets home.
Anyway, thanks for reading, sorry for whining.
Re: The longer this drags on
I feel the same way! Every twinge, cramp and backache makes me think "This is it...finally!" But....as my trip to L&D on Saturday proved me wrong
I thought that the very long trickle I felt was my water leaking, but it wasn't which totally bummed me out! Not to mention the conflicting info on my dialation status
But...I'm 90% effaced! I guess that is better than 75% from last week
Don't worry, this WILL end....sooner or later
i know what you mean...this last month is the longest. For me, the days are blurring together and everytime someone asks when im due i just feel like yelling NEVER. Doesnt help that people keep saying "any day now..."
I seriously wish i could go back to my first internal...i would still let my OB do it, i just wouldnt want to know that i was 3cm at 36weeks, i have had no progress since then and it is frustrating (disclaimer: NO, i did not want LO born at 36weeks, but hearing that i was progressing early made me think that maybe i would get a little more each week, and now that i havent, it is just frustrating.) I am glad she is still cooking in here, it just feels like she has taken up permanent residence lol
Same here, she keeps testing me I think I was due this past satuday... I get a good hour or so of really good contractions, then nothing, it just stops like nothing happened. And it always happens at night...I go for an u/s today to check on her weight and fluid then a doc appt wednesday...here's to hoping it willbe soon!!!
So frustrating! Hang in there ladies!!