I am trying so hard to just live in the moment, but it's like life is too perfect right now.
We wanted a baby and now I'm sitting here 32 weeks pregnant.
We wanted to be closer to family and now both of us are being transferred by work and my work even offered to pay for our moving costs. We found a perfect house in a neighborhood we never thought we could afford, right in the midst of all of our family, for less than we had budgeted for.
We wanted to switch our mortgage to another bank, they just announced a cash back program if you switch to them.
I wanted to be recognized at work for my performance and have had some major career breakthroughs this year.
I just can't get over that this is my life right now, it seems too full, too rich with blessings, too perfect. How did I get so lucky???
I don't believe that life works in a series of checks and balances, but the last 5 years have felt like such a struggle sometimes and we've had some dark days, now it just seems like the universe is just handing things to us again and again.
I'm thrilled, I really am, and so so so eternally grateful, I know how amazing we have it right now, but I think both of us are struggling to just exist in this perfect pocket of life right now, like we don't really want to believe it.
I don't know, I think I'm just hormonal, but I have found myself just sitting here in tears the last few days just so grateful and happy and in total disbelief that there is a little girl in my tummy who belongs to us and things might just work out after all.
ETA - I hope this doesn't come off as "boo hoo, everything is so perfect for me" in a bragging sort of way. I'm more just trying to express the shock I feel when I look around me, and trying to convince myself to just live in this little moment.
Re: I'm feeling TOO rich...
I'm so glad that things are going well for you and I'm glad that you're trying to live in the moment. I sometimes have the same feeling but my reaction is to always just wait for the other shoe to drop. It's like, if its this perfect now, something bad has to happen soon to screw it all up and I just wait for it:(
DON'T do that cause it's not a fun way to live:) I'm going to try your way and just soak up every minute of the goodness!:)
Ditto. I kept waiting for that "other shoe" all the time... it's not a good way to live. If you realize how great everything is and are grateful, try to enjoy it! Obviously life has dealt you a rough hand already, you guys have been well overdue for this happiness! Enjoy it! I'm so happy for you!
This Exactly!!!
I don't think I could have said it any better! Its amazing how much life can change in the span of a year. Enjoy everything that's coming your way because its very much deserved