Pregnant after IF

I'm feeling TOO rich...

I am trying so hard to just live in the moment, but it's like life is too perfect right now. 

We wanted a baby and now I'm sitting here 32 weeks pregnant.

We wanted to be closer to family and now both of us are being transferred by work and my work even offered to pay for our moving costs.  We found a perfect house in a neighborhood we never thought we could afford, right in the midst of all of our family, for less than we had budgeted for.

We wanted to switch our mortgage to another bank, they just announced a cash back program if you switch to them.

I wanted to be recognized at work for my performance and have had some major career breakthroughs this year.

I just can't get over that this is my life right now, it seems too full, too rich with blessings, too perfect.  How did I get so lucky??? 

I don't believe that life works in a series of checks and balances, but the last 5 years have felt like such a struggle sometimes and we've had some dark days, now it just seems like the universe is just handing things to us again and again. 

I'm thrilled, I really am, and so so so eternally grateful, I know how amazing we have it right now, but I think both of us are struggling to just exist in this perfect pocket of life right now, like we don't really want to believe it. 

I don't know, I think I'm just hormonal, but I have found myself just sitting here in tears the last few days just so grateful and happy and in total disbelief that there is a little girl in my tummy who belongs to us and things might just work out after all. 

 

ETA - I hope this doesn't come off as "boo hoo, everything is so perfect for me" in a bragging sort of way.  I'm more just trying to express the shock I feel when I look around me, and trying to convince myself to just live in this little moment. 

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Re: I'm feeling TOO rich...

  • Awww I love this post! You deserve these things and I'm so glad life is treating you well!
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  • Sometimes people have to make their own luck, and you guys have worked your butts off to accomplish everything that you have coming to you.  Congratulations, and enjoy everything you have coming to you!  You guys definitely deserve it!
    TTC Child #1 Sept '08, Dx: Unexplained, DOR 2 IUI's = BFN, m/c, IVF 1 = 0 embies to put back, IVF 2 = BFN, IVF 3 = cancelled, IVF 4 = BFP with 1 embie. Our son came into our life on 9/28/11. We are in love! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Aw, I agree that you deserve all these blessings! Savor every minute and enjoy! :)
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  • Very happy for all the wonderful things going on in your life! Enjoy!
    Dx Anovulatory PCOS Clomid,Ovidrel,TI=BFN IUI#1-#3 Femara,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#4-Gonal F,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#5-Gonal F,Ovidrel= BFP!! Beta #1 11dpIUI=34, Beta #2=131,first u/s 3/14=1 perfect bug with a heartbeat! Anderson Phillip, Born 11/2/11 7lbs 10oz 21in. Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm so glad that things are going well for you and I'm glad that you're trying to live in the moment.  I sometimes have the same feeling but my reaction is to always just wait for the other shoe to drop.  It's like, if its this perfect now, something bad has to happen soon to screw it all up and I just wait for it:(  

    DON'T do that cause it's not a fun way to live:)  I'm going to try your way and just soak up every minute of the goodness!:) 

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  • imageMegannJay:

    I'm so glad that things are going well for you and I'm glad that you're trying to live in the moment.  I sometimes have the same feeling but my reaction is to always just wait for the other shoe to drop.  It's like, if its this perfect now, something bad has to happen soon to screw it all up and I just wait for it:(  

    DON'T do that cause it's not a fun way to live:)  I'm going to try your way and just soak up every minute of the goodness!:) 

    Ditto.  I kept waiting for that "other shoe" all the time... it's not a good way to live.  If you realize how great everything is and are grateful, try to enjoy it!  Obviously life has dealt you a rough hand already, you guys have been well overdue for this happiness!  Enjoy it!  I'm so happy for you!  :)

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  • imageetoyama:
    Awww I love this post! You deserve these things and I'm so glad life is treating you well!

     This Exactly!!!

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  • Yes  Love this post!
    On a TTC journey since March 2010 that is making me more appreciative of life and love. 7/20 -- Surprise phone call from RE after lap pre-op appt-- BFP! 8/5 -- Ultrasound #1 8/12 -- Ultrasound #2 Pregnancy Ticker My Imperfect Pursuit of Gardening
  • Someone just told me yesterday, "Sometimes you have to go through a lot of carp to get to the glory."  You got to the glory!  Enjoy it!  You deserve it!
    Stopped BCPs December 2008 TTC since June 2009 6 unsuccessful Clomid cycles Dx Annovulatory due to PCOS January 2010 DH-perfect 4 unsuccessful IUIs Began Lupron July 7 for first IVF IVF cancelled; overstimulation and coasting lead to huge drop in E2 New testing with an Endocrinologist...perhaps a new diagnosis... So, not PCOS but Hashimoto's Thyroiditis November 2010 After a looong break, started seeing a new RE. Gearing up for IVF 1.2. Beta 1=197!! BabyFruit Ticker image
  • imageetoyama:
    Awww I love this post! You deserve these things and I'm so glad life is treating you well!

    I don't think I could have said it any better!  Its amazing how much life can change in the span of a year.  Enjoy everything that's coming your way because its very much deserved Big Smile

    TTC since April 2009 dx = PCOS; TTC History for DS - A FET miracle after 7 IUIs; 2 fresh transfers, and 1 other FET resulted in BFNs. Hoping and Praying for baby #2: Cycle 1 - FET; November 2012 BFN Next Steps - who knows? Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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