Profound moment

SandiaPinaMama · September 2011

So, some of you may remember way back when I posted in March about my coworker/friend whose baby was stillborn 5 days before LO was born. I sent her a card, and haven't seen her since. Actually, I saw her at a street fair, but I quickly turned, and she never saw me. It was only two weeks after the births.

Tonight I ran into her at a staff party. Another friend asked me if I wanted to get something to drink, and I told her no because this girl was standing in the kitchen. My friend tells me she's sure it's not a problem, but I was sure she was avoiding me.

Well, same friend and I move away into a corner to chat, and the girl comes over. She said hi, and then proceeded to say, "I'm not avoiding you because I don't like you, because I do, but you have a baby attached to you (I was wearing LO)." I said that I know, and it was okay, I was going to stay out of her way. She was all, "no, really." I told her that I was keenly aware, and staying away, just like I had at the street fair. She said she didn't see me at the street fair, and then just trailed off when she understood. We both teared up. Then she thanked me and walked away.

I just can't fathom having labored and not to come home with my LO. To not have him in my life. And I wish that she and I could be friends still, because we had a lot in common. I feel her pain (well, an nth of her pain) every time I think about her and her son. I understand her grief, and because I do, I have to not be around her now. So ironic. T&P for her tonight please.

campbaby76 · September 2011

So heartbreaking, I can hardly imagine. Definately will say a little prayer for her.

Sweet Sadie Mae · September 2011

This is so sad. I hate to put it so dramatically but I couldn't go on without my LO she is my everything. She completes me and I often think of the less fortunate who don't get to have their LO's and I hold her and kiss her and pray that we are together forever. We are so lucky to have our little miracles!