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Stressing myself to the point of tears...

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I hope that I'm just really overanalyzing everything and my mind is just running with my thoughts but I am starting to have a really bad feeling about my appointment on Friday. I have POAS 3 times today and I feel like the + line is getting lighter (probably because I didn't use FMU for one thing) and my mind is just running wild. Now I think my breast tenderness is starting to fade and I haven't really had much m/s other than a little bit of nausea here and there which I can attribute to a slue of other things on top of the mild twinges/cramping that I had a couple weeks ago that are making a reappearance. I don't know why I am even posting...I guess just to vent. I'm just getting terrified of my appt and what we may/may not see :( My DH thinks I'm crazy btw and just worried over nothing, which he is probably right but I can't get the "what if's" out of my head!!! I am thinking maybe I should take a little bump break, at least until after my appt. because I may be stressing out a little more than usual because we have had quite a few ladies leave my BMB the past few days, and I keep thinking that I will probably be the next to leave Crying Can Friday just please get here already so we will know one way or the other and I can stop giving myself even more grey hair!!!

Ladies if all goes well on Friday please tell me it gets a little easier and if not how do you get through it???

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  • jaxie320jaxie320
    I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I'm terrified too and hoping my mind is put at ease a bit after my first u/s on 9/9. I'll be thinking of you on Friday. Just try to take it one day at a time. And hide those pee sticks!
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  • corndog8corndog8

    I'm so sorry you are feeling stressed and nervous....  I'm hoping with time it gets slightly easier to be ok, but I hear  ya.  And our BMB has seen alot of ladies leave lately :(   Try to relax until Friday (which I know is easier said than done) and enjoy each day.   Sending positive thoughts your way for Friday and huge ((hugs)).

    *try to back away from the pee sticks.

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  • Eris-AlexisEris-Alexis
    I'm sorry you are having a hard time.  You are definitely not alone.  Just keep reminding yourself that there is no reason to believe that there is anything wrong.  In the meantime, just take each moment at a time.
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  • awesnapawesnap member
    I say stay away from the BMB and stay here instead! Seriously, the first part is so hard. I think it gets a little easier with each confirmation that things are going right. It will probably seem like a long week, so try and keep yourself busy until then! Good luck, hope you get some great news Friday.
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  • Holly325Holly325 member
    Totally understand how you are feeling!! Its very hard to to think about it! Plenty of T &P for you! i wish you the best of luck, and try not to worry, I know its easier said than done!
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  • smalltowngirl99smalltowngirl99

    I'm sorry your having a rough time.. I think most of our minds are full of what ifs, and tend to let our minds get the best of us. I thought I would feel better after good betas, then it was after 1st u/s, then I had to have another one at 10 weeks because I was paranoid, I still feel the same way and I think that after my a/s I will feel better but who knows. I sometimes just tell myself that there is nothing wrong with me or DH and no reason we can't have a healthy baby! It works for me... for awhile at least! GL and I hope everything goes smoothly!


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  • OwlSLPOwlSLP member
    ((Huge Hugs))  I am sorry you are going through this.  Our BMB has had a lot of sad posts lately and my heart breaks for those women.  I try to post there to offer words of support but it does cause me stress to look at too.  I hope you can make it a few more days until your appointment.  I have my first one tomorrow.  I'll keep you in my thoughts.  
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  • Junebug060609Junebug060609 member

    Sorry you're having a stressful time...early pregnancy is good for that.  It honestly sounds like you've got a pretty normal case of the PgAL pre-appt freak out going on.  Good luck on Friday! 

    Regarding some of your concerns:

    *I think you totally nailed it with the POAS getting lighter.  There also is a point in pregnancy (I don't recall the number of weeks) where hcg kinda levels out. 

    *What you're describing for your symptoms, that sounds totally normal to me...in fact it sounds like what I could've written at 6w.  Symptoms often come and go and not everyone has debilitating m/s.

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  • bmnjd51702bmnjd51702
    Thank you guys so much for the words of encouragement. I really pray that I am just worried over nothing and just letting my mind get the best of me. I know that most of my thoughts are irrational and unfounded but my mind just keeps racing. I really don't know how I am going to do at my appt, my doctor is probably going to think I'm a basket case! Thankfully DH will be there of course and my mom and sister will be out in the waiting room to rejoice for good news and to be my shoulders to cry on if its not good news. I work tonight and them I am off weds and thurs and go back friday night so maybe the next couple days I will be able to regain some composure! I never thought being pregnant would cause so much stress and paranoia but it seems like I can't be happy and excited and my only feelings are fear and anxiety. I just want to be able to be happy about this pregnancy and look forward to having a happy healthy baby in my arms! I really hope I can keep in together at work today because unfortunately most of the women I work with know...mostly because I cannot look someone in the eyes and lie to them and they all knew we were TTC. Ugghhh I'm just rambling now, again thank you all so much for your kind words and T&P's I really need them. I'll be back on Friday to update on my appt. until then I hope everyone has great appts and a worry free week and I'll be thinking of you ladies :)
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