We had friends over last night with their 3 year old and newborn. I was a little surprised at my reaction.
I was relieved not to have a newborn! And I was really happy to have my 2 girls.
I know that I can't replace Quincy and I will probably always look at families of 3 and those with sons with longing, but maybe, just maybe, I am becoming content with what I have.
It feels really good.
Re: Interesting feelings with a newborn last night
I've also spent time with friends with newborns or infants and toddlers, and more often than not I think that our ratio of 2 parents to 1 child is right. Yet I will always sting a bit when I hear of someone newly expecting. I think those paradoxical feelings ar normal and OK - and yes, getting to a place of acceptance is a good thing!
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