OK, hold on, because there are going to be a lot of if's here.
IF our embryo hadn't died while being thawed and IF it had implanted and became a pregnancy and IF that pregnancy had been healthy and IF I had carried to term, today would have been my due date.
The funny thing is that my practice would have scheduled my C-section for a week before my due date and IF the baby was a boy (which I have a strong feeling it would have been), we would have been planning a bris for tomorrow, in the middle of a hurricane!
I'm glad I've had something to distract me all day....
Re: Today would have been my due date
((hugs)) I hear ya. My due date with our surprise pg was 9/5. Instead of having a baby, I'm having chemo. Oh, and it's LABOR day. LAMESAUCE.
"Ifs" don't diminish the hope you held for that little embryo - it's absolutely OK to still feel sad.
I am a runner, knitter, scientist, DE-IVF veteran, and stage III colon cancer survivor.
Huge hugs for you. There are always if's but that doesn't change that something you really wanted isn't happening.
Kelly, Mom to Christopher Shannon 9.27.06, Catherine Quinn 2.24.09, Trey Barton lost on 12.28.09, Therese Barton lost on 6.10.10, Joseph Sullivan 7.23.11, and our latest, Victoria Maren 11.15.12
Secondary infertility success with IVF, then two losses, one at 14 weeks and one at 10 weeks, then success with IUI and then just pure, crazy luck. Expecting our fifth in May as the result of a FET.
This Cluttered Life
The biggest hugs I have are for you, E!
I want to hug you and that beautiful baby belly right now!
annnnnd now I'm crying!