I have been having an issue with anxiety since my little one was born. He is 6 weeks now but he was born a month premature and had to stay in the NICU for two weeks after I was discharged. The whole situation around the birth was scary I was sent over to the hospital after a routine checkup at my OB for severe preeclampsia. Now that my little guy is home and he has been for 3 weeks now, I have been extremely worried something is wrong with him or that he is going to die. We never got a bonding moment after he was born because they rushed him away to the NICU and I didn't get to see him for 24 hours and even when I did get to see him, I was still all dopey from the magnesium and didn't feel right. It makes me scared that I didn't get to make that magical connection that moms are supposed to make after giving birth and maybe now everything is ruined. I am terrified that I didn't get to make that connection because maybe he isn't meant to be here very long and he is going to end up dieing for some reason. I have nightmares at night that have me jumping out of bed and rummaging through the sheets because I dreamt that I had fallen asleep with him in the bed and he is now dead. I have other dreams also with other circumstances. I am constantly checking on him to make sure he is alive. Am I rational with these fear or could this be PPD or baby blues? I think I am worring myself silly, I have broken out in hives all over my body and I am staring to wonder if it is because of the stress? Please help me and let me know what you think.