Big fat chicken

stephlas8 · August 2011

I am especially feeling this Monday...and feeling like a humongous stuffed sausage and all I want to eat is rice krispie cereal. Moving right along..

This weekend we were planning on telling DH's parents since we went to the lake with them. We bought a bottle of champagne for them (and sparkling white grape juice for me!) to make it a celebration instead of a bomb being dropped. MIL is the "wait 5 years" kind of MIL- most of you I'm sure saw my post awhile back about being scared to tell her (and thanks for all of your kind support and confidence boosters).

Well, MIL was of course beaming with happiness because we bought a house in an extremely nice neighborhood that at 23 she can't believe we can afford, blah blah blah and we wanted to tell right then but FIL was an hour or so away and we wanted to wait for him... but somewhere this happiness turned into a TERRIBLE mood. DH and I tried multiple times to bust out the champagne and celebrate about the baby too over the whole weekend but she was just angry about something all weekend. DH kept making me laugh when he would roll his eyes and say... "menopause." So, long story short, because she never was in a good mood and we didn't want to hear her complain, we are still waiting. My parents know and some good friends know. I hate that it's so hard to tell them and I'm beating myself up for being so nervous. She MUST have an inkling because I went back to bed 3 times on Saturday and threw up after dinner that evening. She's been pregnant 3 times... she has to at least be wondering. And maybe this is why she's in a bad mood, because she didn't want us to have a baby because "she's too young to be a grandmother."

I go back and forth between being so sad that we haven't told them yet and really angry because it's her fault for making all the mean comments for the past year that have made me scared to tell her. UGH!

Thanks for letting me vent.