Yesterday was...

Cissi64 · August 2011

...the third anniversary of the EDD for my first loss. I stil get sad and a little weepy thinking about the "what ifs". Youngest DD had tap dance class for the first time yesterday and the waiting area of the dance studio was "baby and pregnant woman" central. I sereously think I was the only woman not pregnant or carrying or chasing a small child...well except for the gradmas that were doing transport duty while the moms and dads were working. The crowd included a few toddlers that are -you guessed it- three years old and one memorable family with 5 children, 6 and under where the mother has absolutely no control over the children. It stirs up all my "Why them and not me" feelings.

I know I don't really belong here anymore but I needed to vent to people who understand.

cutebride73 · August 2011

I am coming up on the 1st anniversary of 2 of my EDD's and so while I am not exactly where you are, I play the "what if" game all the time. Even seeing a pregnant woman or a baby can set me off (especially when I think of my other EDD and where I should be right now).

It's just hard.

You can always come here to vent, don't feel bad about that. ((((hugs))))