Let me start by saying it could be worse. I am so blessed.
Maybe I have gotten myself in over my head. I work Monday-Friday (I am financial analist for juv/domestic court). I clean a family friends house on Thursday nights, and I work as a bridal consultant on Sat and Sun. We are in the process of buying a house (hints the need to make extra cash). In addition to me taking Clomid. I would just like to catch a break some where. I am so tired, so stressed, and I really don't feel well b/c of the meds I am on. Everyone says..." Your doing too much", "You need to put one thing on the back burner", but who's going to come along and do it for me/us. I haven't asked my husband to get another job, he works and take care the house....he hasn't really offered anything additional either. I think I am just being emotional, but ladies I could use some cheering today!
Re: This week has been so bad...
I know the feeling of being overwhelmed all too well. Whenever I am feeling like I am in over my head I make me time. Go do something that you really enjoy and be selfish for a little while. It usually gets me back to normal.
Just remember, everyday is what you make of it! Hope you feel better!
First off...you deserve some cake:
Secondly, if you are run down, it might not help you ttc. You might want to sit down with your DH and explain how you are feeling. I had to remind my DH several times what the meds do to me/how they make me feel because he didn't understand why I would be so tired and moody. Especially if your DH isn;t going through any treatments of his own, he should help out a bit. You can't carry all this on your shoulders. Hope you feel better soon!
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!
It sounds like you have an incredible amount of juggling. Life gets in the way sometimes. I wish there was another way for you. I hear you, though- no one is going to do it for you. Is there anything NICE you can do for yourself. For me its a walk in the woods with my dog and a manicure. Sounds silly and simple, but it helps me.
It sounds like you feel you have no choice but to take care of everything. That may even be true. Is there an opportunity that someone can take care of you or you can spoil yourself a little bit?
HUGS.
TTC#1 since October 2010
"The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be...because of all I may become I will close my eyes and leap." Mary Anne Radmacher
Me:35, 5 major abdominal surgeries for Ulcerative colitis, failed j pouch, perm. Ileostomy DX-DOR & Tubal abnormalities/Extensive Adhesions from earlier surgeries.latest fsh -26
IVF 1- March 2012 Antagonist Protocol; BCP until March 3; AFC this cycle is 10 (Hooray); Start stims on March 9; ER on March 19- 2R; 2T (1 perfect 8 cell, 1 scrappy 3 cell); tubal infection from ER-hospitalized. Doomed! BFN
Essure Procedure to treat bilateral hydrosalpinx; June 2012, wait 3 months for confirmation test.
IVF2 (Egg Banking)-letrozole/antagonist cycle; June/July 2012 225iu merional + cetrotide; slow responder, Ovulated before ER. Unbelievable. Canceled remaining cycles with my eggs
DE IVF in Brno, Czech. Approx. ET on Oct 6 CANCELLED-Essure didn't close both tubes-test again in 3 months
IVF3-DE IVF ET on Dec 9, 2012 (decided to roll the dice no matter what!)
2 perfect HB transferred; 8dp5dt beta:36; 10dp5dt beta 15; chemical pregnancy.
Turning our hearts toward adoption
DH:36, SA-perfect
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HSG-Clear/All other bw-Good
Currently on 100mg of Clomid days 5-9/Metformin 1500mg
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TTC#1 Since March 2011
March/April 2011 - 150mg Clomid + Ovidrel + TI = BFN
May 2011 & June 2011 - 150mg Clomid = No Response
July 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#1(8/1/11)= BFN
August 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#2 (8/30/11)=BFN
September 2011 - BREAK NEEDED DUE TO ENLARGED OVARIES
October 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#3 (10/23/11) = BFP!!
Beta#1(11/7/11)=250 Beta#2(11/9/11)=487 Beta#3(11/17/11)=6500
TTC since 5/2010
DX with Diminished Ovarian Reserve - AMH of 1.1 - 7/2011; AMH of .42 8/2012BFP 9/1/10-M/C confirmed 9/8/10-Methotrexate 10/6/10
IUI #1 (w/clomid)-9/5/11-BFN ; IUI #2 (w/clomid)-10/5/11 - BFP - 11/1/12-No sac seen; 11/2/11 and 11/9/11-Methotrexate
IVF #1- ER 2/2; ET 2/5;-Two 8 cell embryos transfered = BFFN
Surprise BFP - 5/7/12
U/S on 6/8/12 - H/B at 128 BPM; U/S on 6/14/12 @ 9wks-No H/B-D&C on 6/17/12
IVF 2.0- ER 10/17; ET 10/20-One 12 cell, one 10 cell and one 8 cell embryo transfered
BFP! 11/16/12 U/S- Two nuggets with perfect heartbeats! EDD 7/10/13
5/31/2013- My miracles arrived at 34w2d! Welcome to the world Harper and Nolan!

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