2IF Weekly Update - 8/5/11

Re: 2IF Weekly Update - 8/5/11

• MySweetBaboo member

  August 2011

  Welcome new members! Good luck to those testing soon!

  Update: On the verge of cycle #25, expect cd 1 on Sunday

  QOTW:  How do you stay positive through the ups and downs of 2IF?  Do you self talk, or do nice things for yourself?

   

  I stay positive by realizing that dd is truly a miracle and I'm not even sure how she came to be. (sex 1 time the whole cycle about 1 week prior to fertile window). I am just glad I have her and am at the point that if it happens again it will be a thriling bonus. Usually I have a mini pity party for one on cd 1 and the next day I am excited and planning what to do next cycle. I am having my pity party 2 days early today. By Monday I will be in a great mood.

   

   

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• RMR13 member

  August 2011

  Update: Today is CD1 yippee. On to year number 3!

  QOTW: I'm not sure I stay positive. I'm one of those people who when they are positive get hopeful and then are crushed when AF shows up. I spend most of my time just trying not to think about. I also usually spend one cycle mentally preparing for the next.

  

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• gina&dave07 member

  August 2011

  Thank you for the nice welcome! I am sorry that any of us have to be here.
  

  Update: I think I am about 7DPO.  I am not temping, but got a +OPK last Friday.  This is my first cycle post D&C so I am not sure what will happen.  I have no hope for this week.  I think our timing and frequency were waaaaay off.
  

  QOTW:  How do you stay positive through the ups and downs of 2IF?  Do you self talk, or do nice things for yourself?

   

  I agree with Baboo, as every day passes I realize that she really is our miracle.  I have been trying to focus on creating memories every day with her since I may not get to do this again (and of course I always thought I would.)  After the 2 losses, I told myself that I need to make a better point of staying positive and I feel like it is actually working.  I don't really do nice things for myself.  I started running in Feb, so I do like that alone time.
  

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• choirgirl

  August 2011

  Update: I guess you could say I'm on cd3 of a break cycle.  I had my hysteroscopic surgery on Wednesday, and from that point onward, I'm on 21 days of estrogen and then 7 days of prometrium, then once AF comes, that's cd1 of our next IUI cycle.  My post-op appointment isn't until Monday the 15th.   The surgery went well enough that the RE decided not to put in a balloon stent, he feels like things will heal well on their own. Here's hoping!

  QOTW: I have a hard time staying positive. DH stays very positive, so sometimes I let that rub off on me, but it's partly because his head is in the sand, so I usually know I'm just being blindly optimistic.  I'm trying to do positive self-talk. Some days that works better than others.
  

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• karencz member

  August 2011

  Update:  Got AF on my own!!! Woot woot!! I'm following a low Glycemic-index diet very carefully. Started charting. May not be able to actively TTC until fall because of my back issues.  I am really hoping this might be a  "normal" AF because I had one that lasted 7 weeks and I'd really like to have a normal cycle for a little while.

  QOTW: I continue to offer my struggles up to God and trust that He will provide for us and help us. I just try to count our blessings as well.

  
  Baby #3 is on the way! EDD  3/8/15
  DD1--8/29/10
  DD2--11/6/12
   

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• Twizzle member

  August 2011

  Update: still waiting for cycles to return after D&C.  Have no idea when that will be, but hopefully soon since it's now been 4 weeks.  I was doing better dealing with it all until this week and now I'm a wreck again and not sleeping.

  QOTW:  I don't think I am really dealing with it very well.  The best thing for me seems to be to find some distraction to get my mind off my sadness.  Spending time with DS helps a lot.  I love watching him grow and learn everyday and he's such a bright spot in my life.  But at the same time it makes me sad that he doesn't have a sibling on the way.  It also breaks my heart when he sees me feeling down and says, Mommy, be happy!  I try to remember to be positive and not let news of friends' and family's pregnancies get me down and that I WILL have another baby.  I'm just not always very good at this, it's easier said than done. 

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• luckymom3

  August 2011

  Update: Just joined yesterday so it's probably not hard to find, LOL but I am on CD 16 so just waiting after a clomid/trigger.

  QOTW: Honestly, talking with friends helps me. And I have a really good friend who has been going through this for 3+ years. And just enjoying DS. I am realizing more and more how even though it only took two months to conceive him, with what I know now about my body, he is for sure our miracle. The planets must have been lined up just right. 

  And I'm with you Twizzle, I'm such a bitter betty when I hear of other's pregnancies. I am happy for them, it just sucks. I stick with FB, texts to congratulate.
  

  
  June 2010-April 2012: Lots of trying, chlomid, gonal-f, with triggers, without, IUI's and tons of BFNs
  May2012: Letrozole + IUI = BFP!!!! Due 2/10/13

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• erink1981 member

  August 2011

  Update: still waiting to hear from insurance to see if they will cover any part of the PGD with an IVF cycle. I called the RE's office to see if there was anything I could do in the mean time to help speed things along....she basically snickered in the phone and said no   So I'm just waiting I guess. DH is deceiding if he wants to sell his motorcycle to help pay for the IVF....depends on if ins will cover any of it.

   

  QOTW: I try to stay positive by being thankful for all the things I do have...and mostly thankful for DD. As I am now realizing that she is more of a miracle then I thought   Being in summertime helps....sunshine and lots of things to do. I'm hoping I don't do a downward spiral when it gets cold out again.  I also have a frickin AWESOME husband who is so supportive and I try to stay positive for him. I'm not saying it always works....I have tons of bad days, but I guess I try to go to bed everynight being thankful for all that I do have and look to the future with hope.

  ps: I really liked this question...it kind of made me more positive just reading all the replies!

  
  DD conceived with no issues, but born at 33 weeks due to PPROM
  loss #1-06/2010 loss #2-2/2011 loss #3-5/2011
  07/2011 dx with a Balanced Translocation
  9/2011-decided on domestic infant adoption 10/2011-signed with an agency and getting ready for homestudy
  12-2012-after being with our agency over a year and only shown to EM once we decided to talk with RE about DEIVF. Thru a crazy sequence of events we decided to go for it and we picked a donor MUCH quicker than anticipated
  1/13/2013-started lupron with anticipated transfer in mid Feb.
  ER 2/15 resulted in 15 eggs/10M/6F with ICSI.
  2/18 transferred 1-8cell and 1-9cell embie. Snuggle in little embies.
  positive on HPT 6dp3dt. Could this really be IT?!?! Beta 14dp3dt=2440. U/S scheduled for 3/20.

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• lillinzlou

  August 2011

  Update: Cycle 10 is upon us. We had our follow up with the RE and everything looks borderline. He said that this is the reason it is taking us longer. If not KU in 3 cycles we will start IUI with injections. Feeling really good, though. My period seems like it's back to normal and I'm hoping that this is a good sign.

  QOTW: This was a hard one for me up until about a month ago. Since then, I have started using a lot of self-talk and pictures to help knock me out of it. It has worked tremendously. Now, every time I see one of the many pics I posted throughout my life, I can actually see the future. Getting my 2nd PPT, having a growing belly, meeting our new addition, etc. It actually makes me excited, rather than anxious. 2 months ago I was on the verge of madness and ready to quit TTC in danger of my mental health and marriage.

  Conceived DD after 15 cycles--- TTC #2 since 11/10---Me- Poor egg quality and supply---DH- Poor count and motility---2 rounds 75IU Follistim/IUI-BFN---5/12 150IU Follistim/IUI-Over-produced! Converted to IVF! 0 fertilized:( Rescue ICSI performed. 2 embryos transfered-BFN
  
  ---------Game Over---------
  
  Moving on as a family of 3
  Lou's Infertility News
  
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• elisem42

  August 2011

  hey! you can add me to the list!!  i am waiting to ovulate so i can start lupron for ivf # 2...so i am not sure where i would go but that's my status!!  i am changing up my stims and hoping for a much better result...!!
  

  and to stay calm, i go to therapy, started taking a very low dose of zoloft, and i just say that one day i will be on the other side of this giving others advice on how to get through it...visualizing the end of it all makes me feel better....but some days are better than others!!
  

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• abama

  August 2011

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  PLEASE STOP SPAMMING THE BOARDS

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• KelliLynee member

  August 2011

  My update: Waiting on AF (this weekend I think) and have just started charting this past month so I am excited to learn about my body so that when the time comes that we can TTC again, I will increase my chances of getting KU quick-ish. Plus, I think its good to know your body, know if everything seems appropriate, etc. I also just started seeing a therapist this week and I am VERY excited about that. I've needed it for a long time, but this third m/c (actually, the molar pregnancy diagnosis that followed) really put me in a bad place. 

   

  To stay positive, I am just trying to focus my time on my DD because she is even more of a miracle than we ever imagined. I don't want to look back on her toddler years and regret that I spent it wishing for another baby, when I have a perfect one right in front of me. The heartache is still there, but I refuse to let it spoil the good times with my baby girl. We are going on vacation in a few weeks, and it will be our first family vacation alone (we've only ever done weekend trips and one beach trip with the ILs) so I am really, really looking forward to making memories that will last forever.  

  
  
  Trying for #2 since July 2010
  BFP 8/1/10, missed m/c, D&C 9/15/10.
  BFP 1/8/11, chemical pregnancy.
  BFP 3/4/11, measured behind all along, no more HB 4/18/11. D&C 4/29/11. HCG didn't drop, Repeat D&C 6/17/11; confirmed molar pregnancy 6/23/11.
  Forced break, including two Hysteroscopies in October to remove retained tissue.
  BFP 12/29/11! Betas @ 10 dpo = 85, 14 dpo= 498, 22 dpo = 7242
  Heard HB 1/24/12. 144 bpm!
  
  Luca Rose born 9/9/12! More than worth the wait!
  

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• MaybeMore

  August 2011

  Crampingcrampingcrampingcramping.  It's still mostly my ovaries, but my uterus is getting in on the game.  And my cups runneth over so much it hurts to sleep on my stomach--danged cystic bewbs overreacting to the Prometrium.  Hoping it's all a good sign.  Afraid it's just more med weirdness.  Managed to sleep a little earlier, but it's not coming back. 

  I wish it weren't the weekend so I could call my nurse and find out how normal this is.  I ONLY HAD TWO FOLLICLES!!!!  Seriously, this is some kind of joke my body's trying to play on me or something.  I'm pretty thoroughly miserable but (obviously) don't want to use a heating pad.

  QOTW:  Prayer and attempting to maintain a sense of humor.  Haven't figured out what do about the nightmares, though!
  

  
  
  TTC since 6/02 (age 22) K/U instantly despite no AF for 5 months--preemie baby boy 1/03
  M/C 11/04 - M/C 05 - M/C 06 - BFP 2/08--fullterm baby girl 10/08 - M/C 4/11 - went to RE at age 31
  DX: crappy quality & infrequent ovulation, mild MFI
  Stimmed cycle #1 C/P 7/11 - Stimmed cycle #2 C/P 8/11 - Stimmed cycle #4 C/P 10/11
  On Stimmed Cycle #5
  Always thought I'd be a "mom of many"--now just hoping to be a "mom of one or two more!"

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• Sept1006bride

  August 2011

  Update: Just had my 4th and last IUI yesterday afternoon and spent the entire evening in incredible O-pain.  Fingers crossed for this 2WW!

   

  QOTW: I try to exercise a few days a week and just generally schedule me time whenever I can get it...for manicures, sleep, coffee.  Also hoping to start acupuncture this week. 
  

  
  "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."

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• byrne15 member

  August 2011

  QOTW:  How do you stay positive through the ups and downs of 2IF?  Do you self talk, or do nice things for yourself? I try to tell myself that being bitter or upset is only hurting me and my family.  I can't always have what other have and I can't expect others to ever understand how IF has made me feel.

   

  Update: 10dpiui (iui #4), injectables (gonal-f), acupuncture and prometrium

  ~after 34 cycles we finally got our 2nd little bundle of joy~
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• lena0210

  August 2011

  Update:  AF arrived right on time, blah.  Another break cycle for us, we talk about trying for baby all the time but made a decision to try on our own for another 6 months before going back to RE.  I feel like all the meds were doing more damage then good for my body and was just emotionally done.

  QOTW:  DH is super supportive so that definitely helps.  I have good and bad days but  DD can always brighten my spirits.

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• ChicNotGeek

  August 2011

  I had a consult with a new RE on Friday, and he confirmed what I already thought.  Which is good, because no other RE that I spoke with was willing to say anything concrete or give a diagnosis.

  QOTW: Finally having a diagnosis is what keeps me positive.  I was unwilling to accept the diagnosis of "POF" without knowing what was causing the POF.  Every doctor kept saying that I'm menopausal or transitioning or post-menopausal ... and I kept saying, "No I'm not.  I'm too young.  My fertility and reproductive history does not support that diagnosis.  The POF is being caused by some other condition.  What is it?" 

  I finally spoke with a doctor who said everything that I already knew and learned from devouring medical and scientific information over the last few months.  And now that I have a diagnosis, I feel just a leetle beet hopeful ... even though I understand that there is a very very very small chance of success via IVF or other ART.
  

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• becketts

  August 2011

  Update:  I just started the 2WW today. I have a blood test scheduled in a week to check my progresterone level to see if my IF diagnosis is short luteal phase. I almost hope this is the case so we can move forward with a plan. 

  QOTW:  As others have said, I try to focus on enjoying the time I have with DD. She really is amazing! She's at the age where she is constantly learning and every day is a new adventure. Otherwise, I try to distract myself with fun things, talk to people who know about our struggles, and do lots of praying.

  

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