This is my first week back to work and I'm going through lots of separation anxiety just as I did with DS #1. I was hoping it would be a little easier this time around being it's the second child and DH is home with both boys because he still hasn't found a job. However, i'm still pretty sad. I have a really long commute 2 days a week (3 hours round trip) so am pumping 4 times a day. Unfortunately I'm not making near as much milk I did with DS #1 (had a huge freezer stash), which I'm not too concerned about but I am concerned that I'm not making enough for the day it seems. Or I think DH is just overfeeding Noah. He has gone through 20 oz of milk a day. I had left 4- 4 oz bottles and a little extra just in case thinking he wouldn't need it. Turns out he used the extra. Ugh. I'm only pumping about 13-17 oz. Today I left 5-3 oz bottles thinking maybe less in the bottle would be fine too. DH swears he is hungry each time he gives him a bottle. Yesterday I ended up getting what looked like the beginning of mastitis (fever, very sore and plugged breast) and felt horrible by the end of the day. My drive home was miserable and I was in tears when I walked through the door. I hate spending what little time I have with my kids in the evening miserable. I remember I felt this sad the first time around as it is such a huge adjustment going from spending every waking moment with them to just seeing them a few hours before bedtime but man it's hard. Especially with the new breast pumping/feeding problems. Just needed to vent.
Re: Back to work vent
DS ate 20-20.5oz a day many days while I only pumped about 16-18 on a really good day. But then he'd go back and eat more like 15oz a day, it varied, perhaps it's a growth spurt? I had a huge stash with DD and hardly any with DS. Just remember that it does get easier, hugs to you!