I am having a crazy day. DH and I were out late last night, so I may be sleep deprived, but this has been building for a few days, so I can't blame it on last night. This morning, I had a major meltdown. I got out of the shower and DH came into the bathroom. I covered up with the towel and felt really self conscious about him seeing me. I feel like my body is COMPLETELY changing and I feel like I'm becoming really uncomfortable and big. In truth, I am not gaining that much, and the majority of it is in my boobs and belly, so I'm not really being rational here. After I came downstairs I told DH that I was really sorry and that I just feel really bad about myself. DH was wonderful and gave me all the affirmation that I needed, but I still feel like things are really just going wild. Ha. Then, about an hour ago, I was talking to my mom and I broke down again. Just a super hormonal day.
My body - my center of gravity is off, my boobs are getting bigger AGAIN, I am totally noticing my belly starting to really protrude, I have a lot of unwanted/unnecessary hair that gets hard to maintain, I'm having trouble sleeping, and I tend to get heart burn a lot. All of that is nothing compared to just the "feeling" that my body is totally changing.
Please do not think that I am unhappy or complaining. I wouldn't change this for anything. I know it doesn't sound like that, but it's the truth. I am just really trying to adjust to the change. I read that last week (at my 24th week) the baby will grow twice it's size in the next 4 weeks...that could explain a lot. Just an adjustment.
I guess I'm hoping someone else is going through the same thing so that I can get some normalcy and feel less wacky. Haha.
Re: 2 meltdowns today - things are changing...
Yes honey-I've been experiencing major changes..in fact see my post entitled "feeling third trimesterish." i actually shaved my stomach today because when the light hit my tummy while standing in front of the mirror I saw this long blonde peach fuzz everywhere. lol lovely.
btw sounds like you have a wonderful husband so glad he could affirm you when you most needed it!
This pregnancy has been AWFUL for me. With my dauughter I felt terrific, but this time I have had every symptom under the sun. Still nauseous, back pain, weird rashes and funky skin, odd hair growth, dizziness, and the worst heartburn! Girl you are SO not alone. It's hard. I was just telling my DH, that I started hormones on Nov, when we first tried a frozen embryo - and I got pg and miscarried and only had about 3 weeks before we went for the nxt round, so basically my body hasn't been my own since then!!
I'm trying to focus on feeling this little guy move in my belly. It's most likely the lasst time for me and I just love feeling him get his party on in there. It makes the rest of this crap just bearable. Hang in there!
DMoney will be a kickass big sister