DH made me a nice dinner tonight and was being really nice to me telling me that I'm a good mother and I just started sobbing. I don't know if it's the hormones or the sleep deprivation, but now I can't stop crying. Everything in our lives changed so fast and I'm not sure I'm handling it well. I am so scared of DH going back to work and being alone with Allison. I'm scared that I'm not doing things right and I'm still hurting so much physically. I'm scared that my relationship with DH will suffer and that he'll want to leave me.
I told him we'll laugh one day about me sobbing through dinner while Allison slept in her boppy on the dining room floor next to us. Am I normal? Has anyone else felt like this? I'm normally a very confident person and I'm not confident at all about this whole parenthood thing.
Re: sobbed through dinner
hang in there - the first month was very hard for us, she was very fussy/crying, we weren't sleeping, it was just hard
I found that I was definitely emotional too where I never am but they say it is because of all the hormones and I am never girly like that but I sure was the first 3-4 weeks.
People kept saying it would get better but it seemed like it was going to take forever. All I can say is it did get better like everyone told us.
Tiffany,
I cried so hard and so long last night that my eyes were half swollen six hours after I stopped, no joke.... I cried about everything and anything, today was better... (((hugs)))
It is everything all at once. Don't feel bad you are not alone. I too thought I could handle everything and all would be great. Reality is that with pain, lack of sleep, hormones, and everything else emotions are going to be crazy and all over the place. It will be okay.
you just described my first week Post Partum. Ironically, when I went to my dr (for my staple removal) I told him how weepy I was. He said it was normal but if it continued for very much longer, I might be experiencing PPD and he'd prescribe me some zoloft... the next day the weepiness went away...
Good luck! It does get better!