(I apologize in advance for this being so long, apparently I?m babbling today.)
I had another u/s yesterday and everything is looking good. The baby was measuring 8 weeks 2 days and had a heartbeat of around 154. Unfortunately my SCH is still there and apparently I have a fibroid as well.
The doc didn't seem concerned about the fibroid and was more optimistic this week about the SCH. The OB I saw last week was very gloom and doom about it and kept saying things like if it interrupts the pregnancy. I'm still having some spotting and bleeding episodes but it is much lighter than anything I had before and it is very brown blood. The SCH is very organized and not actively bleeding at this point, so this is all good news.
I have not been around much the last two weeks because the heat, morning sickness, and fatigue have been kicking my butt. I'm so tired of throwing up and I am happy to report that I haven't thrown up since yesterday afternoon (which is a HUGE improvement). The OB said it should let up soon, but I'll believe it when it happens.
I am also still having a hard time letting go of the anxiety and constant worry. I keep waiting for it to get a little easier and have realized it prob won't. I'm always going to be a worried mess. 8 weeks was a big milestone in my head because it is the farthest I have ever gotten, but every time I get to those milestones I have a new one in my head. Right now I'm thinking about 10 weeks, and then 12.
I just have to stop the crazy and enjoy this. So I have my first OB appt next week and my next scan will be at 12 weeks. (not sure how I'm going to get through the next couple weeks without reassurances the baby is ok, I have had an u/s every week for the past 4 weeks at this point).
On a funny note, I'm already in maternity pants. 
  My pants have been tight for about 2 weeks and now I have a clear bump that can't be blamed on bloat anymore.  I had to go out and buy some maternity pants this weekend to be able to have something to wear to work.  Basically the only thing I can wear are my skirts, sundresses, and new pants.  I'm blaming this on the fact that the surgeries I had in the past cut through all my stomach muscles making them still very weak, so my belly has nowhere to go but out.
I was hoping to be able to hide this at work for a couple more weeks but it doesn't look like that will happen.  Oh well.  ![]()
~Lauren~
**SAIF always welcome.**
After 2+ years, 3 losses, 3 surgeries, 2 IVFs and 1 FET our little girl is here.
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Sorry you are having a tough time with m/s and everything. Hopefully the SCH and fibroid will not cause you any trouble and the rest of your pregnancy is happy and healthy.
I hear you on the maternity clothes... they are so much more comfortable.
IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer
Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
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Couldn't have said it better. Just try to take it a day/week at a time, it is hard. I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop. Enjoy your bump!
5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first
Thankful for every day
I hope you feel better soon, hun. I am glad your SCH is doing ok.
keeping you in my T&P
 
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
Ugh, so sorry about the fibroid and SCH!! I hope the sch resolves very soon.
I had a rough time in 1st tri with m/s, nausea, etc too. It is awful! I hope it passes for you very soon!
Ugh so sorry your having such a horrible time with m/s... hopefully this passes quickly!!
I don't think you ever get past the crazy anxiety/worrying. I said once I was past 12 weeks I would be not worried... HA! Not happening
I think we need to learn to deal with crazy worry cause we're gonna be momma's soon, and if there's one thing I know momma's do: It's worry about their LO's!
oh cutie, i hope the m/s subsides and you can begin to enjoy this pregnancy. i can only imagine how scared you are but we're all pulling for you and your little one.
((HUGS))
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
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