Officially losing my mind

craxyrae · July 2011

Though I still have 2 days until my due date, and everyone has been very insistent with me that first babies always go late (though IRL all of my friends have gone early), I somehow convinced myself when I found out I was pregnant that this baby would make an early appearance. So fast forward to today and I feel as though this waiting game will never end. I started my mat leave on Monday, but was on vacation for a week and a half prior, so perhaps that is my problem that I have too much time on my hands to think? I don't relax easily!

It is now 5 am and I cannot sleep because every time I doze, I have another dream about someone else going into labour before me - these are people who are not even pregnant, so it turns into this scary place where I am pregnant forever. I am a fairly logical person, so I realize that babies come in their own time and there is nothing to worry about and I just need to calm down. As a FTM, however, I think my nerves and anticipation are getting the better of me. I almost wish I had a scheduled date to look forward to so I know when I will meet LO.

Maybe this isn't the result of pregnancy but instead the 9 months of not having a glass of wine? hehe - just kidding!

Best of luck to the rest of the moms with inside babies still! I hope you're all sleeping peacefully!

LauraJuliet · July 2011

Not sleeping peacefully through the night here!

I thought the same thing (that I'd go early). The only thing keeping me sane is work, because it keeps me distracted.

Think of it this way - there's only a few more days - maybe a week until life is turned upside down (in a wonderful day). You won't be pregnant forever. Treat yourself to a really good book, rent a movie you've always wanted to see, try to relax and make the most of this time.

I know, easier said than done, lol!

tiff · July 2011

All I can say is I can relate. I'm 5 days shy of my due date, my house is clean as a whistle, my freezer is stocked with prepared food and the baby room is picture perfect with everything I could possibly need for the first couple months and my hospital bags are packed. At this point the waiting is KILLING me. I think it's the not working that's doing it to me too.

rab41380 · July 2011

I totally understand! I have a scheduled induction on Thursday cause I just cant take it anymore. Having so many contractions and nothing is happening! Maybe your Dr will agree to it...

sunshineincolor · July 2011

I am right there with you. (I'd probably have that glass of wine if I didn't think it would inhibit any possible progression into labor - haha.) They had given me 2 different due dates, July 11 or July 22, and then at the end of June told me the July 11 date was a mistake. I tried to really "hear" that and switch my brain over to thinking the 22nd, but it didn't completely work. I am now 4 days past my real due date and my husband is like, okay what are you going to clean next? I'd probably go and start working in the yard if it wasn't 98 degrees out there! The waiting is sooo much harder than I thought it would be.

craxyrae · July 2011

I am not a patient person, so this may kill me. Had my OB appointment this morning hoping to at least have some progress, but I am high, long, thick and closed *pout*. I know this doesn't mean nothing will happen, but it would at least make me feel better about the cramps and BH I've been having for weeks.

Best of luck ladies! I'm going to have a nap and torture myself by watching a baby story. One of these days this will be us!

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