Hi ladies. I thought I'd fill you in on my birth story. Unfortunately, I ended up with another c/s.
My water broke at 11:35pm on July 14 and contractions started started immediately and were pretty strong. They became timeable around 1:30am and we got to the hospital around 2:30.
I had a doctor's appt that day and was still 70% and a fingertip, with a "really far back there" cervix (same as the previous 4 weeks). I was still the same when I was checked upon arriving at the hospital. However, my blood pressure was high.
My BP was checked pretty often while I labored and it kept getting higher. I started to get scared. I was checked again at 6:30am and had only dilated to 2cm. Risks and concerns of the high BP were discussed and after very little deliberation, my DH and I decided to scratch the vbac.
Lucy Lauren was delivered via c/s at 7:22am on July 15 (at 40w4d). She weighed 8lb 15oz and was 21.5in. Despite my GD, her blood sugars came back normal (all 6 of them) and she was perfectly healthy. My doctor told me that she was in the exact same position my first daughter was in - face up and diagonal to my left side.
I was initially ok with the rcs, but started having some negative feelings and went through the "what ifs" yesterday.
I had heard horror stories about magnesium sulfate and didn't want to deal with that in combination with a labor that was going nowhere. Now I'm wondering if I should/could have tried.
My husband keeps reminding me that there wasn't really anything I could have done and reminds me of what could have happened and it does help, but the last 24 hours have been a little hard for me. I know I'll get past it with some time and in the back of my head I do know I'm ok with the decision. I think I just built up the vbac in my mind so much that this let down was inevitable.
I will say this recovery has been easier than my first. It's been difficult not to be able to pick up DD1, but I've had my DH home with me this week and my mom will stay with us next week when he goes back to work.
I've enjoyed being on this board and learning so much about vbac. You girls are really supportive and it really does help.
Re: My birth story (update to broken water post below)
Congrats on your daughter, I was wondering what happened with you!
I know there are so many what ifs, but it truly sounds like you did the right thing with what was happening at the time. It's not like it was just a FTP kind of labor, there was a real pressing issue at hand. I hope you are able to work through all the feelings and come to a place of peace with it. Heck, I know I still have moments of regret with #1 and that was almost three years ago! Plus add the postpartum hormones and all that jazz and it can be overwhelming.
Funny that both your girls tucked themselves in the same cozy way!
That's great that everything came back good with her blood sugars too! I was a GD mama as well.
Congratulations on the birth of your new baby girl!
I had a failed VBAC attempt 10 months ago and while it still stings from time to time, I know that giving the ok for the c-section was the right thing to do. The negative feeling and "what-ifs" are completely normal and expected. If you need to talk, PM me.