your opinion PPD or not?

LT&babylove · July 2011

So my baby will be one month tomorrow and my "baby blues" have yet to leave. I had to have an emergency c-section and cant remember seeing LO for this first time. No matter how hard i try. I think because of this it has been really hard for me to bond with him even though im breast feeding (which feels more like a chore to me than anything else). It was also a surprise pregnancy and i constantly feel like im not being the mom he deserves. i take care of him but I dread changing his diaper and i would rather him sleep than be awake so i dont have to rock him or hear him fuss. I feel so guilty i cant even tell anyone how im feeling. i feel like a horrible mother.. and although i love my child very much, i just feel completely unconnected from him even though i can tell he depends on me and loves me so much. is this just the normal baby blues everyone talks about? or should i say something to my doctor? i am so embarrassed and feel so guilty... this sucks

yelena1223 · July 2011

Talk to your doctor. You know that it's not normal and you are looking for help. That's what Dr are for- and there is nothing embarassing about saying "Something is off and I need to fix it".

I basically went to my doc, said "these are the symptoms, I feel like I need to try meds, see if that helps or makes a difference because this is not normal for me" and he wrote a script for Zoloft.

Pregnancy messes with our hormones and then compounded by the added stress of not sleeping, the added responsibility of another human being- all overwhelming things. Getting medical help or at least an opinion is OK. No need to feel guilty- there is not ONE mother out there that did not have at least some of the same issues. We all go through those thoughts or feelings or even symptoms, we just all handle them the best we can with whatever help we get. So get help. It WILL get better.

jeffrae · July 2011

talk to your OB. I did not the first time around - and felt disconnected for 6+ weeks. I still wanted to take care of LO, but felt so disconnected from her. It wasn't until I "snapped out of it" that it started to get better. It is normal to go through some transition type feelings - but if they are lingering, it could be PPD and only a doctor will be able to tell you for sure.

HSSpeducator · July 2011

If you have any doubts, talk to your doctor. They will be able to help you. I can't tell you what a relief it was to hear that all of those feelings I was having weren't me. It was the PPD/PPP. I started during the pregnancy and didn't get help until my son was almost seven months old. I was so far gone that I believed that my husband and kids would be better off without me. Going in there and talking to my OB and him telling me it wasn't really me who was thinking those things was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. It was a really long road back to sanity for me because I had let it get so bad, but at least I knew what it was.

Go to your doctor. I would not stop at your OB though. Please get in touch with a psych or a therapist.

newly_naugler · July 2011

I could have written this post. I had the same feelings - emerg c-section without skin to skin contact like planned, hard recovery, and breastfeeding that I dreaded. I use to hate feeding him. I would actually dread when he woke up because that meant I had to nurse. All I could do was cry. Looking back on it, I wished I would have talked to someone about it. I was embarrassed and thought it was normal. Talk to someone as soon as you can. Mine lasted around 6 months. Please talk to the DR's. I really wished I would have instead of suffering in silence.

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