I guess we are officially weaning =(

srbmvp · July 2011

This has been coming for a long while, and I've planned and did this purposefully, but I still can't shake the guilt and feelings of saddness to be at the end of our BFing journey....

I took myself off domperidone, reducing one pill a day, because I need to start ovulating again, so we can TTC in a few months. I knew weaning off domperidone so quickly would likely kill my supply, but I did it anyway... because I really need my cycle back ASAP.

This afternoon when I tried to pump at work, my pump wasn't working properly... and I got maybe a quarter of an ounce. I skipped my 2nd pumping session, and I feel no engorgement at all. I'm hoping there's still enough milk there for DS to nurse when I'm with him, but at the very least I will offer the boob for comfort sucking for a while longer.

I just feel so sad about being done BFing. I know this is the right decision, because we want to complete our family now, but after all the hard work I put into relactating, it's very bittersweet to be done. And I know if I had kept up the domperidone, DS would have gladly nursed much longer, so in a way I feel like I'm cheating him. I just hope I can make it up to him with lots of extra snuggle time...