What did I do to deserve this??? (whiney post)

Hello everyone,

I just feel like whining a bit, so please bear with me...

I was told at the ER that I'm having a blighted ovum last weekend.  My obgyn says it's not definitive that is true, so wait a week to do another ultrasound.

Now I have both pregnancy and miscarriage symtoms at the same time...  I'm very tired all day, sometimes nauseous, I can smell everything, and my breasts are sore. On the other hand, I'm having weird spotting and cramps from time to time.  

One of my favorite things to do to relieve stress is to swim, but they told me not to for a while.  I feel like drinking some wine (I'm not an alcoholic, but I think I'm entitled to get drunk one night after finding out I'm miscarrying yet again), but I can't because even though the chances are miniscule, there could still be a baby in my body.

I know it's not the end of the world.  I have a wonderful son who loves me more than anything.  But I feel like I'm being punished for something, and I have no idea what that is...  

Thank you for listening...