So this is our third loss in six months (12 weeks, 6 weeks and 6 1/2 weeks)....obviously our problem is not with conception. I feel like I'm numb this time because I have been expecting a loss ever since our surprise positive pregnancy test two weeks ago, but I was still completely shocked when I saw nothing on the ultrasound today after seeing a heartbeat just yesterday. How does that even happen? Now our doctor is referring us to a reproductive endocrinologist for repetitive pregnancy loss. I am from a family of three generations of only women who have babies like they are going to wal-mart?.labor is only three hours max, epidurals are out of the question. How can I be having this much trouble? Thankfully we were sure not spread the news this time. I?m not sure I could handle ?the look? from all of my pregnant friends after our third loss. I?m sick of being the pitiful friend who just can?t make it work. It may suck, but I much rather cry alone to my husband after every baby shower, birth and birthday than go through the struggle publicly. Is the third loss the onset of bitterness?