So, dd is almost 8 months old... I thought I wanted to get pregnant again, as soon as dh was ok with the idea. He's been out to sea & just got home from his deployment (on CD 18--same ovulation as DD lol). That night, I handed him a rubber & said it was up to him... The next day I went onto FF & realized that it was CD 18, which doesn't necessarily mean anything, but I sort of panicked. Well, we had unprotected sex again last night & then I guess either my TRUE feelings came out, or I'm just really nervous about how things will work with 2u2.
I guess my point is, the whole time DH was gone, I was emailing him about how as soon as he's ready, I'm ready... but now that he's cool with it, I'm freaking out!!
All night, all I could think about is how I hope I'm not pregnant & that we should wait longer... Am I nuts? Did any of you go through this?
Please don't think I'm a flake. This is realer than real deal Holyfield. ![]()
TIA!
Re: Kind of freaking out a bit...
2u2 is a handful that's for sure. DH & I talked about when to have our 2nd & he had wanted to enroll in EMT-B classes (we talked in the spring of 2009). Well, I never missed one BCP (he saw me take them at dinner time so he knew I didn't miss one either) and in July we found out we were pregnant w/ #2. I cried and freaked because I knew how hard it would be. DD #1 was almost 11 mo. old when I found out. I have high risk pregnancies and am very sick and get frequent kidney stones. DH started classes that fall and worked 50 hrs. a week, took night classes til 10pm, stayed up doing home work and did 12 hour clinicals at the hospital and private ambulance co.'s on the weekends. It was hard...but worth it in the end. I think it's just a bag of mixed emotions because it is another life changing decision. But think of how you felt when you had DD.....and how all those months of worrying and wondering didn't matter 'cause you held her in your arms...it's the same thing all over again. :-)
Aww...
) You just made me tear up... lol You are so right! I'm just scared... It sure is mixed emotions. Part of me wants to "get it over with" & the other part thinks I'm nuts
I had 4 m/c prior to DD & had surgery, etc. Dr's said that at any time I could once again have IF issues... so that's a biggie in why I don't want to wait, but things are just so great right now, I feel like I'm being greedy or something & I should enjoy life as is, because I'm loving life right now!
That's kind of where I am. We just lost our 3rd and nearly 12 weeks and now we're going to go ahead and try in a month or so for #3 (again). Honestly, I felt that way w/ DD, I was just enjoying life again, sleeping through the night, she sat in a normal car seat, going shopping was easy. Things were fun. I won't lie, it's hard in the beginning, taking a toddler that isn't walking completely independantly and a baby in a carrier. Shopping is hard, Baby in the basket part of the cart, toddler up top, balancing groceries around the baby or dragging another cart behind you. It's flat out hard. BUT it gets better. Now....(grantid DD is going to be 3 in 2 months) DD walks and holds on to the cart & DS sits up top and finally things are getting easier. But it was hard for a while. It's the little things like that that you don't think about, BUT they also are close and play all the time and love each other to pieces. You need to do what feels right to you but sit and think of every thing you do on a day to day basis and think of doing it w/ a baby again.
I say you are having momentary cold feet. We decided to TTC when DS was 12 months, well 9 months came along and we said...why not? it''ll take a few months right? NOPE! that day we got pregnant. Well I mildly freaked out when I found out, but got used to the idea after a few weeks. I seriously thought, "what have i done to my son!" when she was in my arms I knew...I gave him a sister and he loves her to death. We are so happy. We are trying to figure out when to have #3 and I am chickening out only bc we have time to think. When we tried for DD it happen so fast that it was meant to be....I think if we had waited longer I wouldve been trigger shy--so to speak
in my opinion, if you want #2, just leave it up to whoever you believe in. It will happen when you can handle it.