The second line (and my hope) is fading

tnkrbl21 · June 2011

To quote Davez - not glitter farting please, but here's what's been going on:

I started testing early with FRER - for what g0dforsaken reason I don't know.

4dp5dt FMU - super super faint line that I didn't even show DH because I had a feeling he would think I was making it up - it was just that faint. But I saw one.

same day later in the afternoon - the line got darker. So in my mind even if it was leftover trigger that came up in the morning (which it shouldn't have been because I triggered on 6/9 at 10:45 pm) it was still getting darker.

5dp5dt FMU - About the same as the one from the night before - maybe a little lighter, but I guess I was lying to myself all day about that.

6dp5dt FMU - About as light as the first test - have to hold it a certain way to see it etc.

In short, since the 4dp5dt afternoon test nothing has gotten darker and this morning was distinctly lighter. I try to tell mself things to convince mself that it's ok that maybe it was leftover trigger or maybe it was this or that or something else, but I just keep coming back to that the line got lighter.

My beta is Friday so who knows that the bloodwork will show. It just doesn't make sense (not that any of this IF crap does) but we put back a "perfect" blast and now this.

Mouseygail · June 2011

(((HUGS))) I hope that your beta has some good news!

Aaron'sAlli · June 2011

I'm very sorry. I'm in the same boat right now with the wondering and waiting. If I could go back a couple days I would burn those stupid HPT's in a pile in my yard. I thought they would make it easier but I guess we both found out that they just make life more difficult leading up to the beta. Good luck to you.

GMR811 · June 2011

Really don't give up hope yet. I had that happen with 2 of my chemicals and then with this last one, the line was faint and got fainter and my beta 12dp3dt was 51. They basically said expect another chemical. But I went back 3 days later and beta was 459 and I am now 21 weeks pregnant so I stressed myself out bad for nothing. My theory was they both stuck and I lost one right away. Keep holding hope.