It's my due date. At the library today, I hear a lady introducing her tiny baby boy-his name is Edward-the name we probably would have used for Quincy if he had come home with us. I stared at that tiny baby thinking, why does he get to live when mine doesn't? And then I felt like an awful person.
I just read that Josh & Anna Duggar had a baby boy this week and they have a 20 month old daughter. My daughter is 20 months old and I should be having a baby boy this week.
Thank goodness DH is off early today!
Re: Today sucks
I am a runner, knitter, scientist, DE-IVF veteran, and stage III colon cancer survivor.
Clomid M/C 8 weeks 2/08 *IVF #1-DD born 3/09
*Surprise BFP-T18 baby lost at 13w 1/10 *FET #1-DS born 2/11
TTC #1- unexplained...lost left ovary 4/07 IUI #1 2/10/09-BFN IUI #2 3/5/09-BFN IVF # 1-BFP
TTC#2- FET 4/7/11 BFP, Natural mc 5/5/11 IVF#2 ER 9/13/11, ET 9/16/11, Beta #1 9/27/11 BFP 254 Beta #2 9/30/11 793 -Twins!
(((huge hugs)))
i wish there was something i could say to make this easier. sending tons of thoughts and prayers your way.
Mega hugs to you. There are several dates that will serve as sad reminders, and I wish it didn't have to be that way. Thinking of you.