It's probably rude of me to start a whole new post with my random thoughts instead of just replying to the one below, but I'm feeling selfish today.
I've been taking my kids to McDonald's once a week for the past 4 weeks because Justin loves Kung Fu Panda, and we are collecting all of the Happy Meal toys.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. My unemployment is going to run out, probably for the last time, in a few weeks. The thought of looking for a job terrifies me. I don't know what kind of job I want, or even if I really want one. The worst part is, I don't think I really want to be a SAHM either. I feel really stupid for not knowing what I want out of life.
My parents are getting older, as are all of my aunts and uncles. I'm terrified when the phone rings because I always think it's going to be bad news about a relative. I wish time would slow down.
I had a "sexy" dream about a mutual friend of mine and DH's. We all used to work together and this guy moved to Columbus about 8 years ago after he got married. I have never ever been attracted to him, so I don't know what possessed me to have this dream, but I can't stop thinking about it. And that bugs me too.
DH has been working on making repairs in our basement since it flooded a couple of months ago. He turned his ankle 2 weeks ago when he was walking downstairs on the tarp but refused to see a doctor. Last week, he was still complaining that it hurt, so I finally convinced him to go see someone. The doc said it's a level 1, possibly a level 2, sprain (WTF does that mean?). So now he's having a big pity party for himself and wants to lay on the couch with ice on it and be waited on hand and foot. It's really getting on my nerves.
My sister is being a giant pain in the butt about family get-togethers. Almost the entire family has birthdays during the summer, with Mother's Day and Father's Day thrown in there. She always wants everyone to come up where her family lives to celebrate things, but she's 45 minutes away from all of us. A little compromise would be nice once in awhile.
We took the kids to Kings Island over the weekend and Justin fell in love with the place. It was so cute to see the joy on his face.
I've been making a list of the words that Tyler knows and I'm to about 120. I can't believe my little baby isn't a baby anymore. Today he played in the play area at Chick-Fil-A and I was afraid he was going to get bowled over, but he held his own and had a great time. I just can't face the fact that's he's almost 2!
And a confession: I wish I could have another baby. I really want one. I think it would cause me to finally go over the edge with insanity, so it's a good thing my baby-making days are over. But I still want one.
Re: Here are my random thoughts
I'm guilty of this one. I had K signed up for a Tuesday evening tumbling class that ended a couple of weeks ago. I would have to leave work, go pick her up, feed her, and get to the place by 6, which was tough, so I'd always stop at McD's. Last week, I didn't have a good lunch on Tuesday and was starving and cranky driving home so I stopped and got fries & sweet tea for me and a happy meal for K. The happy meals at the McDs near my house are $1.99 on Tuesday evenings so... bargain. Anyway, yesterday, I picked K up from daycare, no McDs, and as soon as she got in the car, she said "I want chicken nuggets" and got mad that I didn't have any. NO IDEA how she knew it was Tuesday.
I feel the exact same way. And don't even let the phone ring at an odd hour or my heart literally jumps with fear and dread.
Along these lines, my parents are traveling internationally and no one heard from them when they arrived at their destination (they assured us they would contact us to let us know they made it there safely.) It was 48+ hours before anyone heard from them. I was a wreck. Turns out their global phone isn't working and no wifi was available. I don't even want to recount the thoughts that went through my mind. I was this.close to contacting the embassy. Pregnant woman + crazy hormones + missing parents = chaos.
I have no idea where this baby will go when he or she arrives. We have two (very) small bedrooms so sharing a room with DD is out of the question. And we can't move because we are in no position to sell. I'm banking on having at least three months where the baby will be in our room before we really have to figure it out.
I need to figure out a more permanent childcare solution for DD and I'm putting it off...because I want to be home with her. Every day.
And I would like to thank you, Katie, for starting this post. Feels good to vent!
This makes me feel better about our eating habits. Because they're similar.
Eh. I don't know what I want either.
I do this sometimes too. Especially if the phone rings later at night than usual or earlier in the morning than usual. My heart will be racing until I know who it is & what they want.
In YH's defense, sprains can be very painful, and are often more painful than breaks.
In his prosecution, if he wanted a pity party, he should have gone to the doctor when it happened.
Is 45 minutes really that far?
Maybe not for all of them, but for one or two? Can you compromise with her?
BTW - I love this random post! Everyone should do one when the mood strikes.
I had a completely unwarranted crazy girl, ugly cry, emotional break down on DH last night. I know he thinks I am crazy. I feel much better today though.
I need to decide what I am doing with my life/job etc. I need to either bite the bullet and start working for my mom which would just allow me to break even with daycare. Or file for unemployment and stay home with the boys which terrifies me b/c I am a terrible sahm, which of course makes me feel super guilty. I am just putting off making a decision because there is that slight chance my school district will find some more money in the allocations and be able to hire me back.
I let Leo watch his first movie today. It was so cute to see him loving Nemo but I feel bad that he stared at the tv for two hours straight.
Tomorrow is DH and my anniversary and I'm sad we are not exchanging gifts.
Whew- venting really does make me feel better!
I think you have plenty of time to figure things out. Max is still in the co sleeper and I'm in no hurry to move him. What is Lillian in? Can a toddler bed and crib (or mini crib) fit in one room?
Thank you for your vents and confessions. You guys are such awesome mamas! My vent: DH hates talking about baby names. I don't really want to share with family ideas yet (think opinionated Greek family/traditions involved)...so I feel like I have no one to bounce ideas off of; except Niko and his ideas are super cute if I do say so myself
I know Niko and I should get out more. We both enjoy playing with each other and staying home and sometimes going to our neighborhood pool. I really need to get my act together and get to the library, some playdates, the zoo, museum center, etc.. I feel lazy.
We're doing this, too. Logan REALLY wants the Tigress toy, but so far we've struck out.
Thanks for the reassurance
We recently converted Lillian's crib to a full-size bed?which may have been a mistake because it practically takes up her whole darn room. Maybe we should have just bought a toddler bed for her and kept the crib for the new baby. But I don't even know if those would fit. Switching rooms *might* work since our room is a bit bigger. AHHH! I just need to keep telling myself it will all work out.
It really will!! We are in an A frame house. 2 bedrooms on the mainfloor and the upstairs is DD's room. We are 5 people in a house with 3 bedrooms, a living room, a kitchen , and 1 bathroom. Oh, and we have 3 dogs. It's not our ideal situation but it has to work for us. We are no where near being ready to sell/buy a house.