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Trouble TTC
CluckyEV
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end of the 2ww is terrifying me...
CluckyEV
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in Trouble TTC
So I am trying to psych myself up to POAS Saturday. Yes as in 6 days away 
Isn't it sad that my first thought is how I am going to prepare myself for yet another let down. This weekend I had a breakdown, worst ever! Poor DH, he was a trooper, just held me until I could verbalize my thoughts. Broken, I felt so broken. Still feel broken, just not as much. So I think that this "confirmation" of the fertility inadequacies I am feeling will be bad for my spirit.
As for phantom symptoms, not sure, all my textbook AF symoptoms are always the textbook PG symptoms ::sigh:: So I guess that is good..or bad...hell I can't make up my mind to save my life. All in all this is not helping, I am sure.
For all of you POASaholics, how do you do it? Are you always thinking it could be pos?
For all of your POAS-avoiders, what do you do to psych yourself up on THE day?
"When the world says, 'Give up,' Hope whispers, 'Try one more time.'" -Anonymous
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Re: end of the 2ww is terrifying me...
I'm glad that your DH could comfort you this weekend. We've all been there girl.
I'm a crazy POASer and since I'm not usually in a same frame of mind when I do it, I don't really know what I'm expecting! lol. Good luck this week!
"I prayed for this child and the Lord has granted what I asked of him." ~1 Samuel 1:27
"Whatever it takes, we walk together." ~Pittsburgh Penguins
My IF-turned-baby blog
Maybe I will layer up my sbrowns lucky socks & channel the "no expectations" frame of mind!
"When the world says, 'Give up,' Hope whispers, 'Try one more time.'" -Anonymous
I'm sorry you're having a rough time, but glad YH is there to take care of you. I have to say I was a POAS person, but after the last IVF I have no desire to POAS. I decided for the next one I'll POAS the day before beta (16dpo) only so that I can find out in my home with DH instead of alone in my cubicle whenever they decide to call me.
I think rather than psyching yourself up, you just have to know that it's possible it's positive, and think about how awesome it would be.
Me (32) DH (30)
A Wordy Blog
Baby Evangeline is here!
Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant
Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl
Yes! Hopefully the lucky socks will help. I'm a big believer in that!
"I prayed for this child and the Lord has granted what I asked of him." ~1 Samuel 1:27
"Whatever it takes, we walk together." ~Pittsburgh Penguins
My IF-turned-baby blog
I'm an early POAS person. The thought of possibly being pregnant and not knowing is what gets me to do it. So I start early (10dpIUI) and when that is negative I just tell myself it is still to early - so I test again the next day. And this evil cycle continues until I get AF.
I also justify it by having an excessive amount of internet cheapies on hand at all times.
Dx: PCOS and MFI
3 IUIs, 4 IVFs = BFFN
3rd RE: IVF #5/FET = BFP
14dp5dt=1170 16dp5dt=2573
1st u/s=TWINS!
It's a Boy and a Girl!
Born at 34w3d!
I am so glad that YH was supportive and helped you through that breakdown, gold star for Mr Clucky!
I am a POAS-avoider and I eventually just get tired of the unknown and when I get to that point, that's when I test. I don't have any suggestions on how to psych yourself up
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Oh Clucky.. I still have faith for you for this cycle! I will be thinking about you all week!
As far as peeing on a stick -- I figure I would be better prepared seeing the results myself, then waiting for the RE to tell.. Atleast I can be some what prepared and have my questions ready -- but from what I learned this cycle, just because I saw 2 lines didnt mean it was "instant gratification", it was a whole other form of panic after, AKA Beta HELL! haha GL girl!
DH became a double above knee amputee with traumatic brain injury (TBI) - July 2009
TTC - August 2009 DX: Severe MFI & TF due to TBI
DH SA 0 count, started clomid therapy - November 2010
DH SA 0 count, increased clomid dosage - January 2011
DH SA 75 million with 60% motility!! - May 2011
IVF with ICSI ONLY OPTION - May 2011
3dt of 2 Grade A 8&7 cell embryos May 19, 2011
+HPT May 30 2011 -- Memorial Day!
Beta #1 = 34 Beta #2 = 101.8 Beta #3 = 603!
Expecting beautiful Eden Grace February 7, 2012!
I don't believe that God ever tells us "no". he has three options. Yes, not right now, or I have something better in mind. We just have to wait & see.
I use to love to POAS...then I gave it up. I haven't done it in months. I just wait for AF....I always tell myself she is coming. At this point I think I will be in complete denial if/when I get a BFP.
~*Jenna*~
TTC since November 2009.
Currently licensed foster parents with the hope of adopting! Also pursuing pregnancy through IUI! First IUI scheduled 10/3/13
Currently loving our placements:
A 1/08
C 4/11
K 6/12
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Happy to hear that DH was there to support you and help you through the rough patch.
I used to POAS as early as 10 DPO. Now, I don't even bother unless I get past day 13, because it hardly EVER happens.
Thanks for all the advice! I wish I could just wait for AF like I did "back in the day" pre prometrium. Now I have to test in order to know if I should stop or not; AF will not show if I keep taking it. I don't get to go do a beta unless it is pos.
Gregermis - That helps to know.
MHMH - I guess the stress NEVER stops ::headdesk::
It is nice to have cheerleaders during the times of emotional defeat!
Guacamole for everyone!
"When the world says, 'Give up,' Hope whispers, 'Try one more time.'" -Anonymous
Trish hopefully Saturday we both have reasons to celebrate. I will not be testing early since I am traveling for work, again this week, & left all my testing supplies at home...on purpose. The good thing about testing Saturday is that I don't have to work until Monday.
"When the world says, 'Give up,' Hope whispers, 'Try one more time.'" -Anonymous
Beta @ 16dpiui=289
Beta @20dpiui=1309
Beta @24dpiui=3969
IT'S A GIRL..MADELYNN ELIZABETH
Madelynn Elizabeth born 31w6d's due to pre e.
Welcome to the world princess!
3-9-12
3.7lbs/ 17 inches
Thanks for the prayers! 10dpiui...RE's directions are to test on the 10th.
"When the world says, 'Give up,' Hope whispers, 'Try one more time.'" -Anonymous
Wow, no way I could wait that long, I give you props if you do..fingers crossed
Beta @ 16dpiui=289
Beta @20dpiui=1309
Beta @24dpiui=3969
IT'S A GIRL..MADELYNN ELIZABETH
Madelynn Elizabeth born 31w6d's due to pre e.
Welcome to the world princess!
3-9-12
3.7lbs/ 17 inches
Good luck! I hope this is it for you.
I'm a POASaholics I just get so excited. You would think after 2 years on BFN's I would be afraid of them but I'm not. I have problems I know.
TTC Since 2/2009
2/2010 - 5/2010 Testing with OBGYN
8/2010 First RE Appointment
11/2010 Second Opinion RE Appointment
12/2010 Clomid + IUI #1 = BFN
1/2011 Clomid + IUI #2 = BFN
2/2011 Clomid + IUI #3 = BFN
5/2011 IVF #1, ET 6/2, Beta 6/15 = BFN
8/2011 FET ET 9/12 = BFN :0(
On a break to save money.
1/2012 IVF #2 ER 1/12, ET 1/15, Beta 1/27 = BFFN
4/2012 FET ET ??/?? =
p/saif welcome