I am SO bummed that I go back to work on Friday! My dream is to be a SAHM and always has been. However, I get free education benefits through my job at a University and DH and I both have a few classes to take. At this time next year, I will have my MA in Professional Counseling. DH will get a pay raise and I will have better part time opportunities if needed. I have great contacts through the University for teaching Psych classes online once I finish my MA (I would do this part time in the evenings while LO was sleeping and DH is home).
Going back for one year really is the responsible decision for our family. We would be seriously struggling if I were to stay home and we would finish our degrees. If I don't do it now, I probably won't do it for quite awhile. And there would be the chance that if I stayed home now, I would have to go back before I want to. But I am seriously so sad about leaving LO on Friday. Not sure what I'm looking for, but thought that some ladies on here would understand.
Re: I need strength for one year ...
I just finished my version of that. I have worked 20-25 hrs a week for the last 9 months, plus a lot of commuting. I am so glad it is finished. It feels a bit surreal realizing that the days of getting up for a babysitter to arrive and heading to work without seeing DD for 8+ hours are OVER. I'm more excited for me than she is to have me - she has been juuuust fine...or great.
I really didn't have plans of working nearly that much. I had a great job fall in my lap so i took it. It was so hard for me - not what I really wanted, but it was what I needed to do. About a month in, I was sold that it was all going to be okay. Nine months later, I have no regrets. There have been plenty of pros to what we chose to do.
It is sucky, no doubt - but I am really confident that when you get to the other side of this, things will be good. Its just a tough leap to take....and again, I agree that it is/was a bummer to take the plunge.